Life is short. Enjoy every single moment as if it were the last.

I love schooooool! :D

2012-01-20T02:12:00.004+08:00

School has been aweeeesoomme!!

And it will get better!!! :D :D

I was trained in some basic lab techniques for the past two weeks. I am now supposed to be working with a post-doc on a project but as he needs to submit his paper draft to the prof, he said we would start next week so that he can better focus on teaching me.

So..yay! After CNY, it's gonna get betterrr!!! Woooo! Can't wait to start on my research and thesis writing. Now should worry about my exams too. hehe.

Chinese New Year is coming!

This year, ZY is going to Chiang Mai with his family, so we won't be spending time together. But it's okay (:

It's weird, but I'm just more super excited about the after CNY part. CNY....is gonna be the same ol' - "are you attached?", "what are you doing now?", "how's life" etc etc etc. heh.

It's really late now coz I just finished baking those cornflake cookies. This year my mum actually requested, for the first time, for me to bake something for new year. lol. And I chose cornflake cookies coz just nice I was craving it! And Christina was craving it too! hehe :D

Gonna sleep already. Very very tired. LOL.

First day of school tomorrow!!!

2012-01-08T21:01:00.004+08:00

OMG.

Finally, the countdown has ended and it's first day of school tomorrow.

I dunnoe what I'm feeling now. Excited yet really nervous yet worried that the transport system will fail on my first day of school especially after what happened today on the circle line which I need to take tomorrow.

I.cannot.be.trapped.underground. or I will get claustrophobic.

Other than that, I think I am actually leaning towards being excited about school. Imagine the experiments I can do...ahhh :D

We found our way back..

2012-01-02T09:11:00.005+08:00

Well, maybe I should finally clear the shock and air regarding my new relationship.

Yep, he was from 4B in CCHB while I was in 3B. We were really good friends during secondary school and he was actually my guy best friend. He was there for me when I needed him.

We kinda liked each other in secondary school but it never materialized because somehow I felt it wasn't the right time. I just thought he was my really good friend.

Somehow, we contacted for awhile last year or two years ago and then we stopped.

About half a year ago, we contacted again for some reason which we don't think was a coincidence and we kinda went right back to being good friends again. For both of us, it felt like we did not lose the 8 years at all. We were comfortable with each other and we could be who we were because we already were friends. We have so much in common and we like doing the same things. Both of us like to cook, we love biology, we can talk about almost anything and we enjoy each other's company.

And so, during new year, he asked me the same question as 8 years ago. We have matured so much and experienced life during this 8 years. Now, the timing is right.

I said yes :)

Happy New 2012!!!

2012-01-01T16:38:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!! What an awesome start to the new year!

I watched the most spectacular fireworks at MBS of which at the same time I am attached again in this new year! More details next time ;) Right now, it's resolutions time again! Let's look back at what my resolutions were last year and check them off the list:

1. Read the Bible as often as I can. [Well, sometimes I am guilty of not reading enough, but I am going for regular bible study more than last year, so I guess that counts? :)]
2. Stay healthy and gain more weight (I really have to gain more weight!!)[Yes I did. I lost 4 kg after the breakup and managed to gain back 5 after pulling myself back up. I feel more empowered now!]
3. Score well for the last stage of my degree and dissertation and hopefully attain first class honours (= [Yep, done and also managed to clinch an award]
4. Find a job and work hard at it. [Loved working at FedEx!]
5. Score well for my GRE [Yep, check]
6. Continue to love my bf, family and friends very much (= [Minus the bf part, the rest done!]

So, let's check out my new year resolutions for 2012!!!

New Year's resolution 2012
1. Go to church and read the bible as often as I can and grow in faith each day.
2. Achieve good results for my courses in my Masters.
3. Obtain some breakthrough in research (anything small is good too).
4. Make lots of new friends in school!!!!
5. Bake more yummy desserts!
6. Continue to gain more weight and stay healthy.
7. Spend more time with my loved ones despite my busy schedule.

Have a wonderful new year ahead everyone!!! May the Lord bless every single day for each and everyone for you! :)

My new love!!! - Holga 135 TLR Camera

2011-12-20T14:29:00.004+08:00

Just received my new Holga 135 TLR camera yesterday! Just in time for my gathering with Jasmine and the rest :)

I love it so much!!! So cool!!

It's 20th of December!

This month has passed so quickly!!!! Still have not finished clearing up my room :( Which I really need to..for a fresh new year and beginning.

20 more days till first day of school!! Really so excited!!!

Listening to Christmas songs now on such a wet weather, really feels like Christmas already. hehe.

So many activities leading up to Christmas day too. :)

Stay warm in this wet and cold weather!

Farewell FedEx :(

2011-12-10T00:54:00.003+08:00

I left FedEx on Nov 30th. It was the saddest farewell ever from a workplace.

I have made so many wonderful friends there and we still are even though I'm no longer working there. In fact, we are meeting up soon for Christmas!! So Excited!!!

Thanks Jasmine, Shwu Ling, Jane, Cindy and Winnie for the Polaroid for farewell!! I really really love it so much!! I was contemplating on whether I should get a Polaroid or Lomo and I am so glad they got me the Polaroid :D Thanks all for the big Giant card too!!! I am still so touched even till now when I think about it.

It was a tearful farewell on 30th :(

I went back again to visit on Tuesday and they were all really happy to see me as much as I was really happy to see them too :) I miss them soooo much!!!!!

Thank you all again for the wonderful experience and I will NEVER forget every single one of you. Our friendship will never end (: Love you all!!!! <3 <3 <3

On another note, my mum got me a new Laptop!!! Asus U36S. Super Light!! and White too. I had requested for a laptop but did not expect her to really get one for me. I told her I needed a light one to bring to school and it really is!!

So excited to start school!!! Attend lessons, perform experiments. Finally, I am much closer to my dream of becoming a scientist. To be able to contribute something to Cancer Research. And it's all possible because of God's grace. He has been so kind to me. I have been soooooo blessed beyond my wildest dreams. God is great!!! Praise the Lord!!!! (:

Graduate Studies!!!

2011-11-24T23:57:00.002+08:00

Yay!!!! I was offered admission to NTU for Master of Science earlier this week!

I've already accepted their offer!!

According to their calendar, I will be starting school on 9th Jan. So excited!!!!

On 15 Dec I am going there for the Matriculation, which is like the official registration to be the student there.

But sadly, my last day with FedEx is on 30th Nov which is next wednesday. Though I feel sad to be leaving, I am really excited to start a new chapter in my life!

Can't wait!!!! 2012 will be an awesome year!!! :D

Graduation!!!!

2011-11-20T12:40:00.003+08:00

YAY!! Finally graduated already! After a 3-yr course and another 1 yr wait for the ceremony, we've finally all gotten our certificate yesterday and are all B.Sc graduates! (:

Woke up at around 6 plus 7 to get ready and reached the venue at 8:50 a.m.

After the registration and briefing, it was already 10.45 a.m. and we have to be seated by 11.15 a.m. and waited till 12p.m. before the ceremony started.

After all the speeches, it was around 1.15p.m. before the certificates were presented.

Our school of Life Sciences went up first so we were the first hundred. But after that, I had to be seated elsewhere as I was to be awarded the Academic Achievement Award -Bronze, and will be presented after everyone has gone up.

So then went the 2-hour wait, after about 600+ more names were read and gone up, it was our turn!

The whole thing ended around 4.30p.m.

I thought my mother would not be coming but while I was on stage taking photo, I saw her walking along the front and we both smiled at each other. I knew she was happy and proud of me (: I was so glad she came.

After that, went for dinner and desserts with the few of us and we had a crazy good time reminiscing on the fun we had during school days.

We're now moving on to a new chapter of our lives and I hope that I would be getting a favorable reply next week on my Masters application (:

I have been so blessed!!! Thank you Lord!

Bintan Escapade!!

2011-10-23T21:22:00.002+08:00

Yay!! Went to Bintan last week!!

Unfortunately, I was sick two days before the trip. TWO. TWO days before the trip. sigh. Anyway, I had fever the night before Bintan, when I woke up I still had a slight one but I went ahead anyway.

It was funnnn!!!!! Although the first day by the time we checked in it was quite late and we just went for a swim and then an hour of Indonesian Massage. Dinner was goood. 7 course dishes for 4 people...we managed to finish :D hehe.

On the second day, Cristal and I woke up pretty early and wanted to watch the sunrise which sadly couldn't be seen from our window :P so we went back to sleep before waking up to go to the beach! Then had breakfast. Moved on to Archery and then bowling before going back to the Ferry Terminal.

It was a reallly short trip and we wished we could have stayed longer. Thank God that we were kept safe and the weather was AWESOME!!!

When I came back though, my fever came back too. LOL. and I'm like only 90% recovered..still slightly sick.

I suspect it could be because there was no salsa lesson for 2 weeks and I didn't take much of my vitamin water. Salsa + vitamin keeps me healthy! :D

Bintan Escapade booked!

2011-10-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

Yay!!!!

Going Bintan next week!! (:

Can't wait and can't wait to take so many nice pics too!!

May the Lord bless a safe journey and may the weather be good too! :D

My New Love

2011-09-25T23:12:00.004+08:00

The Recesky Lomography Camera.

Haven't figured out how to use it. Don't even know how to load the film.

But no worries. Help is on the way by the expert :D

Will see how my photos turn out after the first step is solved!

This is truly life-changing. And I mean it.

Gonna have so much fun now with it around! Gonna take so many unique photos that are captured even better than normal digital cameras.

Sometimes the best are still the oldest.

:)))

work.work.work+stress.stress.stress

2011-09-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

Work is becoming more and more stressful :(( sigh

But....

I am blessed to have such wonderful colleagues at work that they get me through each day, filled with laughter, encouragement and such joy! :D

Love Y'all!!!

As sea-ice retreats, still no oil found in the Arctic | Greenpeace International

2011-09-13T23:42:00.000+08:00

As sea-ice retreats, still no oil found in the Arctic | Greenpeace International

Please help to sign this petition to ask Greenland's Prime Minister to cancel Cairn's drilling programme. An oil spill on icy territory will be impossible to clean-up and it will destroy the habitat and environment in the Arctic. We need to protect our Earth!

Happiness comes from within :)

2011-09-11T21:45:00.009+08:00

Hmm..Haven't updated for some time. Last week I wanted to update about something interesting but I forgot.

Anyway, these days at work are just busy busy busy. OT at least once a week. Sigh. So stressed too. What to do? Work life is such.

At least I have my online shopping to cheer me up :D Don't know buy how many and how much alr :p but I love every single piece I bought! They are all sooo nice :))

Oh ya. I'm learning Salsa now too! hehe. It has been so fun and I think it's a great workout as well :p at least I'm doing some exercise hahaha.

Somehow, a few weeks ago, I finally realize and experience for myself, something so important in life that we often neglect/forget and that is - Happiness comes from within.

No one in your life can make you happy except yourself. People can be nice to you, give you gifts to make you happy but if you do not love yourself or feel you do not deserve such gifts/gestures then you'll never be happy. Only you can feel that happiness inside yourself. Only by loving yourself will you be able to allow others to make you happy.

So think about what you have in life, what is happening in your life, every little thing you experience each day, even if it's something as simple as taking in the fresh air, enjoying the birds singing or watching the clouds go by in the beautiful blue sky. Appreciating all you have in life and not wanting more will help you learn to not take things for granted and just simply be happy :))

I thank God each day for giving me all that I have now and I'm glad that everything in my life seems to be finally falling into place and I am right where I'm supposed to be :)

I love life!! :D

"I finally realize and experience for myself, something so important in life that we often neglect/forget and that is - Happiness comes from within."

23!!!

2011-08-07T21:31:00.008+08:00

Turning 23 was the BEST thing that ever happened to me.

23 was truly the turning point in my life where I enter a new phase in life, as a better, wiser and experienced person.

At 21, we all officially become adults, but are still new to being one.

22 was a kinda in-the-middle phase where we start to be busy with our school/studies.

At 23, most of us have gone into the working world, or are going to further our studies. But most of us have all graduated from university and are entering a new stage where we truly experience the real essence of life; fraught with the challenges, tests and dilemmas it brings. Not forgetting happy moments as well :)

For me, my birthday was truly memorable because I was surrounded by my friends and family whom I know has and will always love me for who I am and are always here for me through everything and anything.

1. Thank you Shanie and Lizzie <3

You girls have been with me through secondary school, through my crushes, my first bf, my anxiety attacks, family crisis. You girls spent a night with me for my 23rd birthday I will never forget. The custom-made brownie from P.Osh, the nice dinner at Alps bar and restaurant where we got to sing :p and I drank my first cocktail - snowball - which was really nice and mild.

Thanks for the lovely bag too! :)

2. Thank you Cristal, Jing Sian and Min Hui <3

Thanks for the wonderful kite-flying cum special dinner at keppel bay for my birthday!! :D Without you girls in my life, I don't know how I get through it. Especially that trying JC year. I'm just so glad to have known you three and thankful to God that you girls have made a difference to my life.

Special thanks also to Cristal!! <3 who spent my birthday with me chilling out at Wala-Wala. It was reaaal fun :D - the simplicity I was looking for to spend on my special day.

Thank you girls also for going through with me the recent tough period I had. Once again, without the constant encouragement and love, I wouldn't have gotten through it stronger and happier. And this goes out to Lizzie as well for your advice and encouragements :)

Thanks for the bookend cum drawers which I looove!!

3. Thank you Jacqueline, Michelle and Stanford

For the wonderful surprise that really really caught me just unaware! Thanks for the unforgettable night.

Thanks for all your presents too! The diffuser + necklace from Jac and hairclip from Michelle :)

4. Thank you to my family

For your support and love with a cosy birthday celebration at home.

5. Finally, all these would not be possible without my dear Heavenly Father - God.

Thank you Lord, for all the lessons You wanted me to learn so far, the experiences You wanted me to experience. I have come out stronger because of the strength You have given me. I know I am now entering a new phase in Life which you have directed as well. Dear Lord, continue to give me the strength to get through each day that I may glorify you in all things I do. And that I may continue to receive Your love and blessings through the angels you have sent me - my friends and family.

Life officially begins.

warm caramel on a cold morning.

2011-07-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

A smile that melts my heart and all my troubles away.

Something I wouldn't mind waking up to every morning that makes me look forward to each day.

Something so sweet that comforts me like warm caramel on a cold morning :)

Desaru Tripppp!!! -10 July

2011-07-17T01:59:00.005+08:00

Went to Desaru for a short holiday with my friends on the 10th July! [click the title for photos!]

It was a truly exciting moment when I reached the customs because I have never been out of Singapore before (except when I was young but I have no recollections at all, so not counted :p).

Finally, my passport has its first stamp! lol.

When the bus drove along the causeway and I watched as we entered Malaysia, the feeling of leaving my own country was simply exhilarating and any fear of anything was just forgotten.

We had breakfast at a coffeeshop then moved on the Desaru fruit farm where our group was actually not paying attention to the farm guide but were frantically taking photos. hehe.

Then we had a wonderful baby lobster seafood lunch at a restaurant before we went to the beach for a short while. We tweaked the itinerary a little by requesting to go for go-kart but it was not worth the time and price when we reached. Then we proceeded to the Ostrich farm where..well..as the name suggests, we went to interact with the ostriches. lol.

Shopping was next at Kota Tinggi mall but we met with a heavy thunderstorm that forced the bus to take shelter at a nearby petrol station for safety reasons.

The trip so far may sound boring, but then comes the highlight of the trip that made it all worthwhile: Fireflies along the river at night.

The cool weather after the rain made it even more perfect. The fireflies were like flashing lights on a Christmas tree. The tour guide even caught one and showed us!! Too bad we couldn't take photos as it would scare them.

We arrived back in Singapore punctually at 10p.m. as planned. It's all thanks to God that everything went as planned especially being able to see the fireflies at night after the thunderstorm :)

It was an awesome first trip out of Home.

Next Destination: Bintan Escapade :))

Update

2011-06-30T22:36:00.003+08:00

Wow..5 months since I last updated. So many things happened.

Sadly, we parted ways. It was still messy when it ended, I would say. Started about 2 months ago. We struggled to see if we could salvage the situation but it was a point of no return and it ended a month ago.

Life is good now for me :). Feels kinda good to be out there again. Enjoying more quality time with my close friends and family. And I'm closer to my mum now too. My life is only just beginning and getting better everyday.

I've started work too!! At FedEx and I'm lovin' it!! Work may be stressful at times but time passes really fast and I've worked for a month already. I love all my dear colleagues there and they're really great fun :D

Like I said, Life is just beginning for me and I'm so excited to start my Masters next year if I get accepted :) God has been reallllly so good to me and I just thank Him everyday for everything he has given me and shown me. Thank you Lord!!

Chinese New Year!

2011-02-01T23:42:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow would be Chinese New Year eve.

For some, CNY is a day they dread with spring cleaning to do, relatives' tough questions they need to battle but for others it's a joyous day filled with laughter, catching-up and many goodies to eat.

Some years I belong to the former group while most others, I belong to the latter, which I'm sure we all might be at some point in our lives.

This year I belong to the latter group.

I actually enjoyed spring cleaning this year. In fact, I threw away probably 70% of my room and I hadn't realized I have so much junk I do not need and I couldn't believe I'm actually still keeping them!

Plus having just completed my undergraduate studies, the spring cleaning felt like a new beginning where I can start afresh in a new chapter in my life. And I can get new things again with so much space to spare :p

Having been sick during the christmas/new year season which dampened my mood, finally it really feels like a new year is beginning. I guess this is the true essence of ushering the new year which is a belated one for me this year.

Nonetheless, I am also excited about being able to wear the new shoes and carry the bag I've been eyeing on that my mum had bought for me.

This year I am really excited about the New Year. Are you?

Here's wishing everyone a Happy Rabbit Lunar New Year! =D

2010 ending soon..

2010-12-29T00:14:00.003+08:00

Can't believe that in a few days it'll be 2011. How fast this year has passed.

I'd been battling a dreadful cold for the past 2 weeks that it even dampened my mood for Christmas. It feels so good to be healthy and well again. It's really important to take care of our health because it allows us to enjoy all the good things in life (=

Today, I just received a very heartwarming Christmas card from Momoko all the way from Tokyo! It really touches my heart that she sends me a card every year. I miss her very much and having received her card today just reminds me that no matter what happens to me in life, I know I have my good friends around me I can count on.

As always, its time for my New Year's Resolutions again...

Last year, these were my resolutions for 2010:

1. Draw even closer to God

2. To stay healthy and gain more weight!
3. Score well for the last stage of my degree/dissertation
4. Continue to love my bf as much as I do now (= [not much of a resolution because its alr accomplished heh]
5. Make even more friends
6. Be less petty and emo

Well I think I accomplished only resolution 1, 4 and 6. I still don't know what's my results for the last stage of my degree and dissertation so I can't really determine that. My weight and the number of friends remain the same so I didn't really accomplish 2 and 5. hehe.

So my new (and more realistic) resolutions for 2011:

1. Read the Bible as often as I can.

2. Stay healthy and gain more weight (I really have to gain more weight!!)

3. Score well for the last stage of my degree and dissertation and hopefully attain first class honours (=

4. Find a job and work hard at it.

5. Score well for my GRE

6. Continue to love my bf, family and friends very much (=

Well, I guess that's pretty much what I wanna accomplish in 2011. 2011 is gonna be a long and tough year for me.

Here's wishing everyone a joyous, fun-filled and jolly good 2011!

Harry Potter Review!!

2010-11-25T23:26:00.003+08:00

I just realized I haven't reviewed the harry potter movie yet.

It's been a week since I watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1.

Well I think most fans or non-fans might feel this movie kind of incomplete. Seeing as it's part 1, definitely the ending was a cliff-hanger. It was clear the CGI effects were good and so were the acting of the now very experienced blooming actors - Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint.

I would advise those who are going to watch this to perhaps if possible, watch the book 6 movie - Harry Potter and the Half-blood prince - again before watching this. It really helped me to understand more, unlike my boyfriend who kept asking me questions throughout the movie lol (but of course I don't mind that :p).

[Spoiler alert]

I was however disappointed that they only showed one horcrux and how they destroyed it because there is supposed to be 7 of which 2 were already destroyed before this movie and this is the 3rd which leaves 4 horcruxes into part 2. It might seem too much to fit into a movie but the adventure and mystery that lies ahead in part 2 is definitely something to look forward to with anticipation and excitement. Can't wait for that!

I'll give it a 4/5.

Public Holiday!

2010-11-17T22:28:00.006+08:00

Today is a public holiday and usually for me it just means that my mum will be home haha. Now that I'm having my holidays, everyday feels like a public holiday :p

Anyway..my bf needed a pouch for his ipod earphones and though I suggested buying one, he wanted me to make one for him since I'm so free. He'd been bugging me to make him one soon so since I'm free today, I made one for him because just nice, my mum cut off a sleeve from an old shirt. The colour was so compatible with the blue string I bought, and it's a dark guy colour so it was just great. (=

Here's how it looks like:

I was actually hesitant on the position of the button or whether it should be there at all. At first I tried sewing his name at the bottom but it was too difficult and ugly :p also due to the stretchy nature of the cloth. I decided to add a black button in the middle so that it's not too plain and I hope it's unique (the ugly stitching might already make it so haha). Well, the fact that I made it it's already unique to him =D. I just hope it doesn't look girly at all. At least it's not pink. heh.

Around evening at 5 plus, my mum and I went to Hort park and walked the Alexandra Arch and the Treetop walk. Although I went to the treetop walk before, it was still scary for me because I'm terrified of heights and the bridge was like made with metal parts, I was so afraid of like what if they dismantle and break or sth lol. Then, there was a family of monkeys on the way and because they were so near and on the railing it was again a scary experience. I had to hold on to my mum and walk for that part haha. There was however, a very cute tiny little infant monkey which was the least scary. When we walked back the same bridge to the carpark, one of the monkeys attacked the plastic bag carried by a man and it had a packet of juice in it. My aunt always said it's better not to show any monkey you're holding a plastic bag because they'll attack it.

Today was pretty fulfilling actually. Did some sewing; took a walk in nature and get a short breather. Quite tired now though. Guess I'm sleeping early tonight. HARRY POTTER TOMORROW!!

Oh ya..forgot to mention that it's just so sad that somehow the release date for the movie was changed from Nov 18 (tmr) to 17 Nov (today!!). I only found out yesterday when I passed some posters. Sigh, I booked my Nov 18 tics weeks ago when it was supposed to be Nov 18 then they decided to change it. I would always catch Harry Potter on the date of its release and its just a pity I couldn't do that this year :(. But oh well, I can't wait for tmr still!! ((=

My Surprise Lunch for bf (=

2010-11-17T11:26:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I decided to surprise my bf who's working at the other side of the country from where I stay, with home-made lunch! =D

I cooked my renowned tuna aglio olio pasta and even queued for his favourite KOI bubble tea (=

Then I took a train down and when I was reaching soon, I sent him a really lame and funny sms to let him know that I'll be meeting him in 15 minutes. He said he was really pleasantly surprised!

We had to eat at a void deck of a HDB because obviously restaurants or food courts do not allow outside food haha. But as a result, I incurred multiple mosquito bites on my feet and I'm now worried abt dengue fever :/. I should never have showered with rose-scented shower gel and sprayed lily perfume -_-. Never again if I'm eating outdoor.

Anyways, he was reallly happy and touched! ((= Especially when I cooked the food and even bought his favourite drink hehe. He said he was sooo motivated to work after that that he cleared 6 cases out of 10! Which is like a lot.

Surprises are just so amazing coz it can really lift up someone's mood/spirit.

So why not plan a surprise for someone you love too? I'm sure it's a surprise they will never forget (=

Freedom at last!

2010-11-15T20:55:00.003+08:00

Just submitted dissertation on Friday!

Finally! Today is the start of being reeeeally free (the weekend was spent with bf and at home hehe).

So far, I've watched "Sense and Sensibility" today again. What an amazing Jane Austen classic movie starring mega stars like Kate Winslet, Emma Thompson, Hugh Grant and especially Alan Rickman (professor snape in harry potter)!!!!It was just wonderful to watch it the second/third time.

Then I spent the rest of the afternoon watching Harry potter behind the scenes or bloopers on youtube. I'm soooo excited abt Thursday! It's the opening of the 7th and final harry potter movie: "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1". I've already booked the tickets like two weeks ago. Can't wait!!!

Tomorrow I think I'll read something or do some arty-crafty stuff hehe. =D

Finally nearly done with dissertation

2010-11-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Finally!!! I'm inches away from finalizing everything. At least I've managed to edit and cut down till I meet 5000 word-limit.

I might need to read and re-read again during the weekend to check whether it flows.

Right now I'm just going to rest for awhile. It's been a loooong two weeks.

Update

2010-10-24T16:46:00.002+08:00

Haven't update for a reeeeaallly long time.

Just felt like blogging again. But I don't think anyone reads my blog anymore :p haha.

Anyway..finally all my exams are over!!! Now only left with Dissertation and I'll be free as a bird till graduation next year.

Oh..I'll be taking the GRE (Graduate Record Examination) in April so I'll be preparing for that (not exactly free as a bird then eh..) and I'm thinking of applying to NUS and NTU for graduate studies so I'll be keeping my fingers crossed and praying that I'll hopefully be accepted (=

I was so stressed over the final module exam - biotechnology and genomes - but I'm soo glad its finally over! I'd rested over these few days and have been trying to edit my dissertation draft but my supervisor has yet to reply me. I'm kinda worried that i might need to have some kind of drastic change to my dissertation depending on her comments and i wonder if i'll have enough time to do so. sigh. I did already send a reminder email last week and she replied that I need to wait for a few more days but I'm getting more worried and anxious as the days shorten towards the submission date. I think I'll probably drop her an email again and hopefully she's done alr (=

Wish me luck and pray for me!

One Year Anniversary!!!

2010-01-20T16:53:00.008+08:00

19th Jan 2010 - Our one year anniversary

I arrived at his place around 11 a.m., we ordered Mac and while waiting for the food to arrive, we decided to exchange our gifts. He hid all the gifts in a wardrobe and when he opened I was instantly touched merely by the no. of gifts and also what they were. Simply shocked and touched. Tears welled up in my eyes, and before I read the card and cried even more, I passed him his gift. I could tell he was equally shocked and when he read the card I could see tears in his eyes as well (guys..so ego.. don't want to admit he was crying..lol)

His gifts for me...

My gifts for him..

After the touching moment, we had lunch and he got ready and we left the house to watch "The spy next door" at Vivo GV max. It was quite funny and action-packed, a typical Jackie Chan movie. After that, we made our way to

the mystery restaurant which he kept a secret from me except for the location - Duxton hill. So I just walked with him as he led me there by train and on foot.

We finally reached the restaurant at 06:30p.m. - Bar Restaurant on the Hill - a restaurant with a classy, vintage and romantic setting. The food was fantastic! Especially the dessert: Meringue with some fresh fruits on top (it has a special name..some superlova pavlova sth i think..heh). Anyway, this dessert is a MUST-TRY at the restaurant! You won't be disappointed!

His Lamb Chop

My Moroccan Chicken

The Meringue!!!

Actually, while eating, he kept asking me the time (he spoiled his watch so now he doesn't have one), and I got suspicious because he initially told me that we were going somewhere that didn't need to pay. So I tot it was some park or sth and I could take my own sweet time to enjoy the food. But I think I ate so slow that he decided to spill the beans and told me that he bought tickets to "Songs of the Sea" at Sentosa! We have actually been wanting to watch that but somehow there was always sth. So I ate a little faster but we still had to take cab to vivo and then take the monorail because he alr bought tics for the monorail too.

The show was amazing! But it was kinda short, just 30 minutes. It was too awesome that we wanted to see more..hehe and the weather was wonderful too, no clouds in the sky but the stars and a crescent moon (=

After that he sent me home and went home.

It was just such a memorable day and he really put in a lot of effort to make sure that everything went well and that I was happy. He said that as long as I'm happy, his effort was all worth it.

~~~

Thanks baby, for the preparation you have done to make this day special and memorable to the both of us. You've shown me in this one year that you love me very much, for who I am, even times when I'm petty and unreasonable, you still accepted everything and love me unconditionally. I really truly feel that I'm the luckiest and happiest girl alive. I love you.

New YEAR!!!

2010-01-09T12:03:00.003+08:00

Okie..I know its been rrreeeallly long since I've updated my blog.

But since its the new year again (Oh ya..Happy belated New Year everyone!) ..I tot I should review last year's new year resolutions as always.

So let's check them out:

Resolution no. 1 - Draw even closer to God
Hmm..I think I did draw closer to Him indeed (=

Resolution 2 - To stay healthy and gain more weight!
Apparently I lost 1 kg.

Resolution 3 - Score well for the second stage of my degree
Yes indeed I did (=

Resolution 4 - Make even more friends
And this too =D

Resolution 5 - Stop answering my own questions
Yeppie..definitely did less of this

Resolution 6 - Stop talking rubbish all the time
Erm..I still do actually. So kind of didn't fulfil this )=

So this year's resolutions is going to be about the same:
1. Draw even closer to God
2. To stay healthy and gain more weight!
3. Score well for the last stage of my degree/dissertation
4. Continue to love my bf as much as I do now (= [not much of a resolution because its alr accomplished heh]
5. Make even more friends
6. Be less petty and emo

Anyway, let's go back a few days back. Ok maybe 9 days back.

I went to Boat Quay with my bf to wait for the countdown and celebrate our first New Year together as a couple.

After our dinner, we went there and got a seat. Around 9. And we basically stuck our butts to the seats. So since there was a lot of time. I asked the both of us to write a list. The top 10 things you love about 2009 and the top 10 things you hate. Well apparently, we couldn't finish our hate list but we finished our things we love list (=

After that we made 3 resolutions for ourselves for 2010 and also for each other. But that's a secret ;p

We waited till 12 mn for the fireworks display too and went back after that. It was just such a memorable day =D even though it was crowded everywhere.

EXAMS OVER!!!

2009-10-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

It seemed as though it was yesterday that I just announced that my exams are over. But that was like only 4 months ago. Time flies so fast huh...

I'm so excited abt later! One thing because it's Jac's 21st chalet and another because I can finally see my bf!!! Although it's been like 5 days since I last met him but I still miss him a lot!!!

And I was upset with him ytd and turned off my phone the entire day. But when I finally decided to speak to him, it turned into sth funny...

bf: so why you turn off ur phone? don't want to talk to me ah?
me: no la...of course not!..just...you know..don't want other people to call me?
bf: really? I tot you didn't want to talk to me because I made u upset..
me: yeah..actually mmm...abit la..like partly because of that...
[silent pause]
me: like...99%
bf: HAHAHA so 1% is because you don't want to talk to everyone else and 99% is because of me??
me: Yep =p
bf: HAHA gosh..you're just that cute (=

And we just laughed and laughed. I can't even control myself because it was that funny. And got some other funny stuff too. heh. Yeah..ended up forgiving him...just some small issue...no point getting mad at him for so long. I always can't stay mad at him for very long anyway..dunnoe why..hehe :p

Surprises

2009-09-19T23:49:00.005+08:00

Today is one of our monthly anniv again..and this time my bf wanted to bring me somewhere we've never been before.

He brought me to habourfront and bluffed me by saying that we were going to Mt Faber (which actually we've gone there before). But then he led me to wait for the bus to Labrador park, and it was at that point he revealed to me where we were going.

Hehe, we had lots of fun just walking around, although for a short while only. He said he wanted to bring me there to see the sunset but then sigh, the sky was so gloomy and there was this group of big dark clouds covering the sun. I think we'll probably go there again, when the weather is super good, to see the sunset again.

Anyway, there was another surprise. At first before we went to habourfront, he brought me to this place to get a gift for me. I went to the toilet when he paid for the gift and I didn't realize that he bought sth else for me as well! Somehow I was so blur that I didn't realize he bought a giant card for me also. All along till the park, I tot he was carrying a file he bought for me. Haha, it was only when he pulled out the card from the bag did I realize that it was actually a card and not a file. LOL. I was pretty touched but blur at the same time because I'm still sick. heh.

We then went to the pastamania at habourfront to eat and went home after that (=

Oh ya, I changed my blogskin because the previous one had some problems. I might change again. At least let my blog have a skin first ;p haha

I'm 21!!!!!

2009-08-05T01:04:00.010+08:00

Hehehe!!!! I'm 21!!!

I turned 21 last saturday!!

I invited mainly my uni clique, JC and sec school close friends (= and also my relatives, family and of course my darling =D

I had so much fun that day! Although I kept running about; didn't have much time to interact with everyone. Please forgive me if I've not been a good host ):

Here are some photos:

Wild wild wet adventure!!

2009-07-21T23:51:00.003+08:00

Hehe..went to wild wild wet with my darling yesterday. Was supposed to go on sunday but it rained..so thank God the sun was shining so brightly yesterday hehe (=

We had lots of fun!!! Especially on that big round float thing that slide down from the top. We sat that with another couple and I screamed my head off for at least the first part of the journey which was like a roller coaster. I didn't even dare to open my eyes because it was going so fast, I was so scared I'll be flung off, even though he was holding on to my hand. lol.

We enjoyed the "Tsunami" the most, where it was just waves, and it was really relaxing and fun!

After that, we went to eat at BBQchicken at E-hub. The chicken at restaurant is just fantastic! I ordered "Jerk BBQ" which is kind of like just the chicken drumstick, barbequed with a special korean bbq sauce. The chicken was sooo tender and juicy. Really, one of the best chicken I have ever tasted! Do try there!

And today..he surprised me again. hehe.

I was waiting at the bus-stop for my bus and looking at the floor when at the corner of my eye, I saw someone walking towards me, so I wanted to move away and let him pass. Little did I know, it's my darling!! lol. He bought food for me again, because he know I sure won't eat dinner or no time to buy. (I did eat..hehe but quite little..not really hungry)

Then he sent me to school and went home after he ate there because his mum cooked dinner and I know he's really tired too.

Really touched again..Thanks dear =D

Touched again..=')

2009-07-10T00:34:00.003+08:00

Hehe my darling surprised me again!! =))

He had to go somewhere near my school today for some work stuff and I thought he was gonna go home after that coz neither of us know what time he would end actually and I know he's tired. I also dunnoe what time I would end. But around 8 plus, my lecturer said today shld end quite early and I was quite happy so i msged him that I would end early today.

He thought I would end really early and actually he finished work at around 8 plus but instead of waiting for me in school he decided to wait for me at the bus-stop that I always alight. He called me at 9:25 thinking that I'd already finish class, but I haven't and I replied him that class might not end early after all (apparently my lecturer just have so much stories lol). I also asked if he just ended and he said ya and he's pretty tired from his work today. So I asked him to sleep early tonight as I tot he was on his way home.

I was so wrong. I called him when I walked out of school and he told me he's waiting for the bus to go home so I made my way home as usual unaware of what was coming up. When I alighted the bus, he was just sitting at the bus-stop right in front of me. I stood speechless with my jaws dropped and just stared at him. Again like last time I asked him why he was there when I thought he was actually waiting for the bus to go home.

He told me that when he called me at 9:25 he just reached the bus-stop. He thought since I would end early, so instead of going home, he wanted to surprise me. When I arrived at the bus-stop it was already 10:30 p.m. I felt so bad but yet really really touched because I didn't expect class to end late instead and although he was tired he still came down to see me even for awhile.

I shouldn't have told him that I will end early, but I tot if I could go home early we'd be able to talk and sleep earlier today..so I wanted to let him know. But little did I know....=( sigh.

Anyway I just don't know how to describe how I'm feeling now because I'm more than touched. I saw him sooo tired and it made me feel so like heart-wrenched yet extremely loved, warm and touched at the same time. I told him that he could have just gone home when I told him that I won't end early after all since he's so tired, but he said that since he traveled all the way, he was just going to wait for me.

He was also telling me of some activities he had planned for us next week, and I'm just so excited (= because part of it has the harry potter movie in it too! hehe can't wait!!

~~~

Just by everything you do for me, without saying anything, I know you love me lots.
Thanks darling (:

Great day today!!!

2009-07-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

Hehe..I had such a great time with my darling today!! (=

Went to his place first for lunch...and then lunch was so full (I had like probably 2-3 times more than my usual serving of rice) that we fell asleep on the sofa. I was so full, I could hardly walk and I felt so super drowsy after that. He ate a lot too. lol. We were actually intending to go to the supermarket straight after lunch..but he fell asleep first...then after I sat down..I just fell asleep too. hahaha! I woke up earlier though...to wash the dishes and it rained.

So we ended going to the supermarket later than we expected hehe. It was fun shopping together and after we reached back at his place, we unpacked the stuff and played 2 rounds of cluedo before we left.

I suggested playing cluedo because the last time we played, I lost to him 3 rounds and after some training and playing on my own, I kinda learnt the trick to winning or playing it well at least haha...so I wanted to challenge him. We had so much fun playing and it was a draw 1-1 (hehe next time we'll play more rounds when we have more time :p).

After that we left the house to go cycling! We went to pasir ris park to cycle for about 1 hour plus close to 2 hours. It was more of a leisure cycle. We would cycle and sit down to take breaks, enjoy the sea breeze, the view...took some great photos (thanks to his skills hehe. I need more time to adjust to my new phone lol).

After the cycle, we went to white sands for dinner and I went back by cab because I was pretty tired alr. I had so much fun today that I rmbed I was tired only when I reached home. I finally feel more relaxed from all the last term's stress and I think I'm now finally ready to take on this term's even more stress. hehe.

Thanks darling, for such a wonderful time today (=

surprise surprise!

2009-06-30T23:14:00.003+08:00

hehe haven't updated for sometime.

Hmmm the holidays are definitely over )= but at least now school is still not too bad hehe.

Anyways, I am so happy that my bf is back from reservist!!! Finally lor...after one week...At least he got call and talk to me everyday for a while...so I'm pretty contented (=

And..just last saturday (or the saturday that just passed), my mum kinda surprised me. Well...I don't know if it can be considered a surprise but something great came out of it..lol.

I met Celine first before I went to meet my mum at paragon. I asked her why she's going paragon again because we just went there last week. She just said she needed to buy something.

Backtracking to last last saturday, my handphone batt died and we walked into the m1 shop hoping to buy a battery (because it's spoiled anyway) so we looked at some phones and my mum asked me if maybe i wanted this Nokia phone which had really small and numerous buttons.But I told her I prefered the Samsung Omnia and I don't mind waiting for the tariff rebate (something like discount for my bill) to end on january next year before I buy a new phone.

Back to the saturday, when I reached paragon I gave her a call and she told me she was at the m1 shop, so I was wondering like why would she be at the m1 shop. It turns out she had been there earlier to look at the Samsung Omnia phone and the latest Samsung jet phone and compared with others as well.

She asked me if I liked the Samsung Jet. I just gave her a are-you-sure look and asked her if she was really serious in buying it for me. She just replied that if I really liked it then she will. I told her the tariff rebate would be gone if we bought a new phone but she said it's ok.

Wow, to think she said ok when like half a year ago she said no when I asked if I could get a phone myself but the tariff rebate would be gone.

So I decided on the Samsung Jet because its more suitable for me and also my mum said it was the latest model too..so it's better to get the latest.

I asked her after that if it was an advanced birthday/christmas/random gift but she just said "anything you think". LOL. I also told her that it was actually the first phone she had ever got for me. hehe.

Somehow these few months I could feel my mum's attitude towards me and our relationship has become much better. Is it because I'm turning 21? lol

EXAMS OVER!!!

2009-06-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

Wooo!!! finally exams over!!! That's only one good news out of 3 news.

What's the two bad news?

1. I need to submit an assignment on wednesday which I am still 1/4 through.
2. New term starts next week.

sigh. anyway..those aside..I'm so glad the exams are over. I've been studying to madly this week that I really need a break. At least from thursday onwards. lol. but only for a few days before school will start next week.

Today after the paper, we had our clique gathering to celebrate our end-of-exams and rahim's birthday. It was funny how murali sang so loud it made everyone in the restaurant turn their heads until we stopped singing. lol. After that they went to watch "drag me to hell" while me, jac, michelle and stan went to the arcade to play. Then I went to meet my bf at tpy...he came to meet me even though he was tired, after his work...so I really appreciate that (= hehe. We walked and spent some time for a while before he sent me home and went home.

So now...with such a short break I'm just gonna be doing that assignment, spending more time with my bf coz he's going for reservist next week, and maybe do some revision for next term. haha. coz one module is linked from this term..so better start early :p

Alright...I'm gonna go play CS (counterstrike)...finally...after one week of not playing. hehe.

Revision/Exam week

2009-06-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad that this week passed really quickly and I'm also happy that the lupus presentation went really well. Pathology revision tonight was exceptionally useful too.

Now I'm all geared up to prepare for the pathology paper next friday. Sounds scary but I think if I manage to understand all the chapters at least the basics, MCQs shld be alright, and also focus on a few very very important topics that will definitely come out for essays and since its 2 choose 6, hopefully the topics I focused on comes out. hehe.

As for clinical biochem, its really a lot of going with the flow..because there is a need to understand many metabolism and many of them is a lot of cycles and pathways and by understanding the underlying mechanisms, during the exams if we can recall the pathways, it should be alright I hope. And again for essays, there are also certain topics that will definitely come out for essays, so at least a thorough knowledge of those topics would probably help. I just don't really like memorising reference ranges.....lol

And my bf has been so understanding that I have not been spending much time with him and its going to be even less in this coming week. But he has his games to entertain him at least..so I'm not that worried. [I just wanna thank you darling for always being so patient and understanding ((= ]

So now it's all just me, my lecture notes and God.

May God give me the strength and motivation during this tough exam week and may He keep me calm during the exams, to remember all that I've learnt and to help me get through. May He also give my classmates everything they need to get through this week as well.

All the best to everyone!! (=

I will blog again after my exams...hehe.

As usual before the exams I will mention some things I will be doing after the exams as a kind of motivation:

1. Play left 4 dead with my bf
2. Uni clique karaoke outing ;)
3. Monthly anniversary celebration...hehe
4. Watch Monsters vs Aliens
5. Relax!!!!
6. Study HPP as it's linked to next term...lol

Thanks for coming!!

2009-06-03T00:29:00.004+08:00

My bf surprised me today again...this time he really had a hard time though.

Today after my tuition I told him I'll be meeting my group mates at city hall..so he asked me where but I told him I'm not sure and I will inform him once I know and he said he will update me on what he will do after work but most likely going home.

So I really really thought he was going home because he woke up earlier today for work and he had quite a busy day. I know he's very tired.

When we decided to stay at Bakerzin, I told him but I didn't mention which branch. About half and hour later he replied me that he's home and he's going to take a nap and asked me to sms him when I reach home.

So I continued with my group discussion until 9 plus when he smsed me that he woke up. I asked how it was and he said it was uncomfortable (I later found out he had been napping at the esplanade library...that's why)..then he called me to ask where I was...and I said Bakerzin at Suntec...then he said "Oh!" He had gone around city hall just to search where I was. He went to marina square, raffles city and when he reached city link he kinda just had no idea. Poor darling... he had wanted to surprise me but he had to ask me where I was in the end..haha

When he reached I did nag at him (just a little :p) because I heard all the trouble he took just to find me, and even though he was so tired he still waited for me alone and even ate alone [so emo :( ]. But I was really touched.

I waited with him for the bus at the interchange when we reached tpy because if he sent me home he would miss his last bus and I didn't want him to take cab home. He asked me to hurry home as it was late..so I didn't get to see his bus leave.

~~~

Thanks dear for coming to surprise me and accompany me back even though you were so tired and you had one of the busiest day at work.

I just felt a bit heart-wrenched that you had to wait for me alone and had a hard time looking for me. And also because you missed the last shorter-travelling-time bus, you had to take the last super-long-travelling-time bus home and you don't mind even though you're tired.

I'm really touched that you took all this effort and I still thank God everyday for having you in my life. (=

Packed coming week

2009-05-31T09:26:00.004+08:00

Let's see what I need to submit this coming week:

Monday - 3 mindmaps from choice of 4 topics: inflammation, cancer, radiation or necrosis for pathology (not counted in exams)
Tuesday-Wednesday - Rehearse for poster presentation on Thursday
Thursday - 2 poster presentation on lupus and genetic predisposition for autoimmune diseases for pathology (of which our group still hasn't started on the latter) - 10% coursework mark
Friday - Submission of Human physiology and pharmacology report- 15% coursework mark (still doing) & going through of revision questions in pathology revision lecture

This week I've been so stressed about all these and at least now our big poster on lupus is nearly done but we haven't started on the 2nd smaller one and we still need to rehearse on our own for the posters and submit the HPP report on Friday. Not only that, this friday is our revision lecture for pathology and next week 12th June is already our pathology exam. We still have an exam for clinical biochemistry.

STRESSED!!!

Happy Birthday Darling!!

2009-05-20T00:03:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday my dear!!!

All the best for your last paper (=

I will not be so mean and say how old you are :] hehehe

I can't wait to meet you later!!

Another surprise

2009-05-13T00:05:00.005+08:00

So today, my bf surprised me again.

He knew I would be rushing to school today after tuition and probably won't have time to eat. But I made it to school by taking cab and while I was in the cab he asked me to wait for him in school and also not to buy any food yet. Of course he covered up where he was with some work thing the whole time i was going to school so I kept thinking he was doing work and didn't think he would be coming until he smsed me to wait for him.

So then he appeared not long after I did with some snacks and a drink for me.

I was really touched and tears just welled up in my eyes as I ate but he asked me to quickly eat because class was about to start...LOL.

~~~

Thanks darling, for always surprising me randomly, especially today when you know I won't have time to buy food as I would be rushing like mad.

Thanks for taking such good care of me and loving me sooooo much (=

Surprised!

2009-04-29T00:13:00.003+08:00

I'm still smiling in a silly way and I can't seem to stop.

So my bf asked me if I was going to eat after school and I asked him why. He then replied that he just wanted to know roughly what time I would reach home so that he knows how long he'll be playing his game. But he asked me to call him once I reach tpy coz he wants to ask me sth. I was abit suspicious when he asked me to do that as I thought maybe he could be waiting for me or something. But I didn't want to expect anything and we had also already met for lunch today so I asked if he was tired and wanted to talk to me on the way home instead of waiting for me to get home. He just said that he wanted to estimate how long he needed to play his game.

And so I believed.

I was just sitting on the bus not knowing what was coming, and watching worriedly at the swine flu situation on tv mobile.

Since my darling asked me to call him when I reach tpy, as soon as I alighted the bus, I reached for my phone but while doing that I noticed someone familiar sitting at the bus stop. It was him!!! ((=

I didn't expect him to be really waiting for me at the bus-stop since we already met today. He had dinner with his colleagues at city hall, so he just wanted to drop by and surprise me.

For about 1 minute, I just stood in front of him with a shocked look on my face. He simply stood up from the seat, hugged me, gave me a kiss on the forehead and said "Surprised?"

I was speechless as I really just didn't expect it. I asked him "why did you come? I tot you're at home? like why?" He just replied "cannot ah?". I didn't know what to say. I just kept smiling.

I am still so touched coz I know that he's quite tired today too but he came just to surprise me. He accompanied me to buy supper back and he sent me home and went back himself.

It was a very short meeting but the fact that he waited for me and just wanted to see me, knowing that I miss him very much too is like just so sweet of him!! (:

Hehe thanks darling =D

Endless thanks

2009-04-26T17:24:00.004+08:00

The uni clique gathering was really fun last night!

We met for dinner at seoul garden, of which I think the highlight of the night was yoshi dunking cooked beef into a bowl of raw eggs and then eating that.

After that, some of us continued the gathering at DXO. The music there was ok last night, although I expected better, but at least it was ladies' night. haha.

~~~

Thanks darling for coming with me to the gathering yesterday.

On our way there, you were like a nervous monkey who kept complaining that your hair is not fine even though I said it is, and you kept checking if you had forgotten to bring anything.

You wanted to make a good impression to everyone and I must say you did a fantastic job.

At the club, you made sure I was safe, even when I went to the bar with my friends to get a drink, I noticed you kept looking over to make sure we were alright.

I loved to dance to the music and you joined me because everyone was dancing and you didn't wanna look emo by yourself at the table, plus you wanted to dance with me. It felt so amazing to be dancing with you =)) I was also extremely amused not only by your unique dance moves but by the fact that you were also stealing glances at the man-u match on the TV and dancing at the same time. It was really not an easy feat dear. lol.

Thanks for sending me up making sure I was fine because it was late.

I enjoyed the night even more because you were with me.

And I look forward to each new day because I know I'll be spending it with you.

You know it. I love you <3

I'm glad fate brought us together and I made the choice to be with you.

Drove alone for the first time!

2009-04-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

Finally after more than a year of obtaining my driving license...

I finally finally managed to convince my mum to let me drive alone for the first time!

I was gonna have tuition today and I thought since my student's house was quite near (not like until pasir ris or some other side of the island)...I begged and reasoned with my mum that I could drive the car alone.

And she allowed! She knew that place quite well..so she advised me on where I should park the car.

Going there was alright although i met with a short traffic jam due to lane-merging and I was slightly late as a result.

The main challenge was after the tuition..

There was a heavy thunderstorm....I could hardly see even after I put the windscreen wipers to fullspeed..I had to drive really slowly...and it was pretty exhilarating I must say. First time driving alone and such a challenge. LOL.

I made it safely home and parked alright. hehe.

So I'm just really happy I got to drive and I'm still alive =D

Thank the Lord for protecting me (:

Thanks dear...

2009-03-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the random adventure yesterday (:

Nv thought u will suggest something as random as taking the first bus, any bus, that comes to the bus stop and stopping at any random stop and if we're lost just take another random bus..to nowhere, no destination, no time limit, just spending time with each other not knowing where we're stopping. Although in the end we decided to go to East Coast park lol.

hehe. I wouldn't mind going on an adventure like this next time. Anywhere as long as I'm with you.

Thanks for sending me home even though you're so tired and I asked u not to.

Thanks for loving me, accepting me for who I am and understanding me more than I do ((:

my grandmother...

2009-03-13T18:45:00.004+08:00

Time truly flies by so quickly...

Today is my grandmother's third-year death anniversary (lunar calendar).

It feels as though just yesterday that I took care of her...

......as though just yesterday that I watched her heart beat slowly drop...

and it feels as though just yesterday I wept sorrowfully at her funeral...

I can't believe 3 years have passed and how I've lived through this 3 years without my grandmother. The 1st and 2nd year were the toughest as my mother and I struggled living together. But now life is much better and I know my grandmother will be happy if she's still living now knowing that there's someone special in my life who loves me as much as she does (:

I will always miss you grandma...

"Unlocking Secrets of the Search Engine" ebook + website

2009-03-06T23:08:00.002+08:00

It's been a year since I've launched my e-book "Unlocking Secrets of the Search Engine"

Unfortunately, I will not be renewing the webhosting service and therefore the website will be shutdown.

However, my ebook will still be available at Ebookmall.com for the same price of US$6.95.

http://ebooks.ebookmall.com/title/unlocking-secrets-of-the-search-engine-toh-ebooks.htm

Thanks for your support (:

Update...

2009-02-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

I find myself getting more forgetful nowadays...I think maybe too many things to study??? brain really overload alr...haha.

First lecture was cool...lecturer was good except sometimes she tends to divert a little and elaborates too much..(there's a line between elaborating just enough and elaborating too much..sometimes when u know too much..u tend to explain a little more and makes it more complicated)

And I just wanna thank you, my dear, for coming to school to fetch me today without me knowing (: Just nice when I needed an extra hand to help carry my heavy lecture note and a reference book :P hehe. Somehow you always appear unexpectedly when I need help, be it an extra hand, or when I need a smile or a good laugh...you always know ((:

New term

2009-02-22T21:05:00.002+08:00

The new term is starting tmr....I've looked through the lecture notes and the new modules look tough, challenging yet interesting..hehe...kinda can't wait to start..and I wonder if the lecturers would be good.

Anyways...the holidays passed so fast...and as the course continues...the modules get harder and harder and this is when the pressure just adds up.

I hope with God's grace and my bf's encouragement and support, I would hopefully do well for this coming term (:

EXAMS OVER!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-12T00:50:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! The moment I've been waiting for! The minute I submitted my paper..I was like "Freedom!!" hehe. And Valentine's Day!!! haha.

After the exam, our big clique had lunch at pizza hut at Plaza Singapura...after that we shopped...and I came home for awhile to put my heavy textbook because it was troublesome to carry around. After that we caught the movie "The wedding game". It's really more of a comedy and it was quite sweet at the end. I love the wedding dresses that she posed in too..except for the last one..which I thought was just ok.

Anyways..after the movie...I went to meet Leonard. I was so happy to see him again after a few days of not meeting because of my exams and his assignment. The whole day I was just looking forward to meeting him hehehe ((:

When I'm with him, I just forget all my fears, troubles and sadness...all I feel is happiness and bliss :D

It's funny how I still have butterflies in my stomach whenever I meet him....and before we leave...I always dread saying goodbye. I simply cherish every single moment we have and at least now I have one week of holiday...so we can spend more time together ((:

Here's a photo of us at the sentosa flower show this year:

Exam tmr!!!

2009-02-08T21:58:00.004+08:00

The time has finally come.....

Tomorrow would be the immunology paper and I'm really praying hard that "complement system" will come out as one of the essay questions....but we'll see hehe.

As always..I'd always plan post-exam activities as a way to motivate myself to study really hard and look forward to after the exams!!! hehehe.

Some activities include as usual...watching DVDs...reading...and now maybe cross-stitch. But then I look at my new time table and I only have about 1 1/2 weeks of holiday. Pretty disappointing huh.

But...something I'm gonna really really look forward to the most is spending Valentine's day with my darling!!!

We are so looking forward to that special day...especially when it's our first Valentine's day together.

~~

Anyways....I'm thrilled to say that I'm now happily attached to Mr. Leonard Tang Yong Lai (((:

And I'm thankful that God brought him to me, for I wouldn't have been as happy as I am right now.

CNY. PMS. Exam. Stress.

2009-02-04T10:09:00.003+08:00

Hmmm I just realised I haven't updated in a really looong time.

Hehe anyways, Chinese New Year was fun .. although up till the eve I still wasn't in the mood. And it was weird that just yesterday I was walking along the street and wondering "eh? Is Chinese New Year here yet? Oh ya...it is." Then I laughed to myself because clearly...I'm stressed.

Exam in just about 6 days. I'm super extremely stressed. Why is it that I can understand when I read but then my memory is not as good as before?

Stupid PMS. Always makes me forgetful. Why am I so unlucky as to have my study week fall on the week I have PMS and it makes me cranky and forgetful. Crap. See what I mean?

Oh...and I went to get Britney Spears' latest album "Circus" yesterday too. Like finally. It's a great album! 4.5 /5 hehe.

First entry of the year!

2009-01-14T11:42:00.002+08:00

Ok..so apparently I'm quite late with my first entry of the year because it's already 14th Jan. hahaha.

So far the year has been going quite well for me.

I hope that this brand new year will be a brand new chapter and start for me from some bad memories of last year.

Anyways...I just updated my blog song..this is now my current favourite song called "with you" by Chris Brown. It's really nice!

With you

I need you boo, (oh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And there're hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Verse 1]
Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you're a stunner
Hot..little figure,
Yes, you're a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

[Bridge:]
You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.And..

[Chorus:]
Oh!I'm into you,And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feels..
What I feel when I'm
With you [x5]
Girl..With you [x5]

[Verse 2]
Oh girl!I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! Little shawty,
Say you care for me,
You know I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know that I won't lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

[Bridge:]
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.And..

[Chorus]
With you [x5]
Oh..With you [x5]
Yeah Heh..

[Bridge 2]
And I..Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And there're hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

Woo Oh.. Yeah
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

[Chorus]
With you [x5]
Girl..With you [x5]
Oh..

The time of the (last day of the) year again...

2008-12-31T11:54:00.003+08:00

Yep...it's the time of the year when everyone is making new year's resolutions.

Let's look back at the resolutions I made last year...

1.Draw even closer to God
2. To stay healthy
3. Score well for the first stage of my degree
4. Pass on my first driving attempt (with God's help of course)
5. Make even more friends

Let's see..

Resolution no.1 - Draw even closer to God
Although at one point in time, I was further and further away from Him, I drew closer to Him at one turning point and now, I'm full of faith again (:

Resolution no.2 - To stay healthy
Hmm..well..although this year I landed in the Emergency room once for giddiness, I'm now leading a better lifestyle. I've gained 2 kg last week..been eating more...exercising more (like jogging and cycling every week). Yeps. Just need to stay healthy and strong.

Resolution no.3 - Score well for the first stage of my degree
Definitely did (:

Resolution no.4 - Pass on my first driving attempt (with God's help of course)
I passed and definitely with God's help.

Resolution no.5 - Make even more friends
Indeed I did :D

So...my next year's resolutions are gonna be along the same lines:

1. Draw even closer to God
2. To stay healthy and gain more weight!
3. Score well for the second stage of my degree
4. Make even more friends
5. Stop answering my own questions
6. Stop talking rubbish all the time

So what are your resolutions this year?

Happy new year everyone!

Festive Season

2008-12-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!!

Wow, what a year it has been. So many events happened to me. Major. Minor. All sorts of shapes and sizes lol.

Anyway now that a New Year is coming soon, I'm gonna live a more satisfying and fulfilling life, hopefully go through the new year with as less sadness and more happiness as possible. hahaha.

I've come to realise many things about myself this year. Did some soul-searching sometimes. Thought about things that I've done. Regretted many that I've said or done. But what's done is done. All I can do is learn from my mistakes and start a new year fresh and clean!

Happy Holidays and Best Wishes for a brand New Year!

When there was me and you

2008-12-02T11:38:00.002+08:00

When there was me and you -Vanessa Hudgens

It's funny when you find yourself
Lookin' from the outside
I 'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there

Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true

But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smile
You made me feel
Like I could sing along

But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true

Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
because I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling and I didn't mind
Because I liked the view
Oooh Oooh Oooh

I thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
because I liked the view
When there was me and you

Update on my cousin

2008-11-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

Just an update on my cousin...

He's already discharged from the hospital on thursday. When I went to visit him on Wednesday he was already so much better, not vomiting and not having fever.

So Thank God for that and also many thanks to all of you kind souls out there who have kept him in prayer. May God bless you all (:

My poor cousin

2008-11-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

Sigh...my youngest cousin, Shao Jun, is in the hospital right now.

He was admitted on Sunday because he kept on vomiting since that afternoon. Even now, he is still vomitting, just at a lesser frequency and he also has fever. The doctor said that it's gastroenteritis or more commonly known as gastric flu.

Poor kid, he didn't even get to sleep well these few days, just catching a short nap now and then. He also hasn't ate anything since sunday afternoon as whatever he ate he just vomited. So he has been on drips too. And he's only 4...

All I can do is just to pray for his recovery.

May God heal him so that he can be back to his cute self again.

Praise the Lord!

2008-10-27T11:02:00.002+08:00

Thank God, He blessed the weather on Saturday that it didn't rain!

It has been raining everyday for last week and I was so worried that it will rain again on saturday and then we'll not be able to go to Botanical Gardens to enjoy the flowers, birds and insects haha. But Thank God, it didn't rain and I also prayed that we'll finally be able to see some blue in the sky because the rain has caused the sky to be filled with clouds that there was hardly any blue. And there was definitely a lot of blue in the sky haha.

Anyway, I had a great time with ks at Botanical Gardens and it was a lot of fun haha (:

And now for High School musical 3... I went to watch it alone on Friday when it was released. It was amazing!!!! I actually cried too...heh..although a little embarrassed because I was crying alone. But it was just...the best! I loved every single minute of it! Definitely worth my time and money!

High School Musical 3

2008-10-23T22:25:00.004+08:00

The movie we've all been waiting for... (ok..maybe just me..)

High School Musical 3: Senior year is gonna be out tmr!!

Can't wait to watch it. I've already got the soundtrack and I'm lovin' the tunes. Currently repeating "Can I have this dance?". I've watched the bonus DVD and seen the making of this scene when they sang this song. Man.. I really can't wait to watch it when they danced on the rooftop and then it ended with the rain. The song is just super romantic and touching! I love the lyrics. Made me cry a few times. It is the best song out of all 3 musicals! Which is why I'm gonna put it as my blog song...

Here are the lyrics:

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh...no mountains too high enough and no oceans too wide
'Cause together or not,
our dance won't stop.
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do.

Angel of mine

2008-10-02T11:31:00.004+08:00

I just love this song - Angel of Mine by Eternal.

Oh, Angel

When I first saw you

I already knew

There was something inside of you

Something I thought I'd never find

Angel of mine

I look at you (looking at you) looking at me

Now I know why they say the best things are free

Gonna love you 'til the end of time

Angel of mine

What you mean to me

you'll never know

Deep inside I need to show

You came into my life sent from above

Better than a dream, such a perfect love

And I'll adore you 'til the end of time

Angel of mine

Woah waoh, angel, yeah, oh

Nothing means more to me than what we share

No one in this whole world can ever compare

Last night the way you moved is still on my mind

Angel, angel, of mine

What you mean to me you'll never know

Deep inside I need to show

You came into my life (my life) sent from above

Better than a dream, such a perfect love, perfect love

And I'll adore you 'til the end of time

Angel, angel, of mine, of mine

Angel, oh angel, angel

I never knew I could feel each moment

As if it were new

Every breath I take or vow that I make

I want to share it with you, share it with you

When I first saw you I already knew

There was something inside of you

Something I thought I'd never find

Angel of mine

You came into my life, sent from above, up above baby

Better than a dream, such a perfect love

You're such a perfect love

And I'll adore you 'til the end of time

Angel of mine

What you mean to me you'll never know

Deep inside I need to show

I look at you, looking at me

Now I know why they say the best things are free

Gonna love you 'til the end of time

Angel of mine

You

2008-09-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

Why do I keep running from the truth?

All I ever think about is you.

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized.

And I just got to know...

Things to do after the exam!

2008-09-24T17:00:00.002+08:00

Somehow I'm excited about the upcoming exams, but I'm even more excited about activities after the exams!

I'm gonna be watching:

Friends season 9 and 10
Sydney White
Pride and Prejudice both 1995 and 2005 versions (again...I know..haha)
Hannah Montana & Miley Cyrus: Best of both worlds concert; The Movie
Death note 1 & 2 and L:Change the World (again...)

Wow, so many movies to watch, I can't wait till the exams are over!!!!

And something magical and wonderful is about to happen (:

hmm

2008-09-23T01:14:00.003+08:00

I rmb in the past, I used to ask God why He did the things He had done. Sometimes I want things to go my way, and when it didn't I thought God was trying to take something good away from me.

But then I'll keep telling myself that it's because God has something better for me. But yet, I'm still human. Sometimes I get impatient and think that that was it. It's gone and gone forever, and nothing better will ever come my way.

I guess I'm wrong. Because God is definitely right.

And I'm so glad something better has come my way.

Thank you Lord, for all the things You've done for me. And I hope this time it will all work out well (:

David Archuleta sings Crush live!!

2008-09-20T12:58:00.005+08:00

Wow, I just watched this video and David just sang this yesterday 19th september at a Ford day event and he sings Crush live for the first time!!!!

He is so amazing!

Crush - Lyrics

2008-09-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

I just love the lyrics to "crush" ! Still repeating it everyday (: Can't wait till I get his music video!
I've alr watched it but I've been trying to get it on itunes.

Actually, after the first few times when I listened to the song, slowly a music video of the song started forming in my head. Although the real one is a different story than the one in my head, still, it featured a "crush" but mine revolved around prom night.The real one is more of a picnic gathering with a group of friends and of course there's david's "crush" in the video too. And strangely, she looked nearly the same as the lead actress I had in my head. haha. See..I'm kinda psychic..

Anyway, the music video was great! It was young yet matured and just really showed out the theme of the song really well. Go watch it if you can! Or better yet, get it on itunes (:

Crush - David Archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth? (why do I keep running...)
All I ever think about is you (All I ever think about...)
You got me hypnotized (hynotized), so mesmerized (mesmerized)
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Crush - David Archuleta

2008-09-16T00:04:00.004+08:00

As you may have noticed, I just changed my blog song again.

And this song has been repeating in my mind, ipod and com as long as i'm awake. I didn't even know David Archuleta released a single, until recently when I wanted to check out when his new album is gonna be released and found out about his new single -crush.

This song is just fantastic! And so suited his age but yet not too childish or young. Either way it's just such a great song! I just can't describe how good it is! It deserves a 6 out of 5 stars. Since it's only been a few days there'd only been abt 150+ playcount in my ipod, but I think it's gonna beat my "perhaps love" record of 2033. Soon..soon..hehe

I would really want to meet David Archuleta in person! He's the most soulful, kind and cute singer ever! When he performs, it's just truly mesmerizing (:

I can't wait for his album!!!!

Jessica Simpson - Do you know

2008-08-30T16:14:00.003+08:00

Sept 9 - the release date of Jessica simpson's new album - "do you know"

Sounds so exciting! I love a country album once in a while (: Plus I've always been a fan of hers, so I'll be waiting. hehe.

Hospital trip

2008-08-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

I never imagined myself lying in a hospital bed one day.

Until yesterday...

I felt giddy in school as I arrived in a rush, hoping I was not late.

As the class progressed I felt the giddiness getting worse. And when I got up during break, I was too giddy that I had to be supported so that I could walk to the toilet.

Dr. Pallavi took my pulse and found that it was low and I was also probably suffering from hypoglycaemia (low blood sugar).

Even after two cups of milo and resting on the chairs with my legs propped up onto a pile of bags, I still wasn't feeling well. It got even worse as we made our way down. Dr. Pallavi asked Ardy to carry me as I was forcing myself to walk when I couldn't and that was when I suddenly felt as though I've lost every sensation in my body. I was so scared I cried.

As I was carried to the bench, I was feeling weaker and weaker as though I was going to lose my consciousness anytime, my pulse was back to normal but I was still displaying symptoms of hypoglycaemia and I was shivering like mad as well. I felt a little better as my friends tried many ways to keep me warm. Dr. Pallavi then suggested that I should be taken to the hospital to be checked and I'll need a drip if my sugar level is really low.

So the ambulance came and the paramedics took my blood sugar but it was within the normal limits. My vital signs were normal but they said I should still be checked and it might be fatigue.
It was actually quite funny when they wheeled me in to Alexandra hospital and I was still lying down there worrying out loud about the test tmr (which happened today) and I didn't want to stay over at the hospital. Then they said, the doctor will have to do a check and see how it goes.

Anyway, a blood, urine and glucose test was done but I was normal. I think the 2 cups of milo finally worked their way or sth. I was given a saline drip, an injection to stop the giddiness (on my butt -it was so damn painful), and when the doctor came and said that my blood test was normal and I was diagnosed with orthostatic hypotension, I was discharged.

That was my 2-hour experience at the hospital.

I really have to thank my friends who were there for me and helped me in school, and also Yoshi and Jac for accompanying me to the hospital. :)

I'm feeling much better now, just shouldn't do any activities in a rushed manner or I'll feel giddy again. heh.

What a day!

2008-08-17T22:56:00.003+08:00

What a day!

Firstly, someone stole my parking lot today and my mum actually went down and scolded the driver. I was so shocked la. I mean I'm angry of course, but I wouldn't go down and scold or confront. It was so scary. lol. Anyway if someone did steal, I would just have to find another one I mean, I can't do anything if that guy doesn't want to come out. No point quarrelling. Although it was quite bad of the driver to steal from a P-plate driver :'( I clearly signalled and reversed into the lot when he suddenly drove next to the car but slanted(in a much better position to park, compared to mine in a perpendicular position and with my side so close to the cars too), my mum asked me to reverse some more but I told her I can't because he's already going into the lot much faster than me and I'm going to hit it alr. And that's when she got out of the car. All I could do was just froze.

Secondly, I got to cook pasta for lunch today again. I think I didn't blog about the lunch I cooked for me and my mum on national day. I thought it was my best tuna pasta ever, everything was just right. Today my mum asked if I could cook pasta again but I told her I didn't get tuna. And she said I could use salmon. Well, normally if I cook salmon pasta I would cook them separately and then place them together on a plate and the pasta would usually be tomato-based. But today I thought maybe I should cook them the way I cook my tuna pasta. The aglio olio way and not separately but cutting the salmon into smaller pieces and then cooking them in the aglio olio. And it turned out pretty well. I'm quite proud of it. hehe. Should have taken photos. But forgot. Was too hungry. lol.

Today was a really busy day for me. In the morning I drove out and back for a family thing, and then reached home around 11 plus, still had to vacuum the house and then cook lunch. Then washed the dishes. Finally got some moment of rest when I caught some table-tennis action between Korea and Japan. Then I took a shower, did the laundry and went to NTUC with my mum. After we came back, we had some mid-aftnn snacks and then I cleaned the toilet. Finally...I had about an hour plus to do my report before dinner time. After dinner, it was table-tennis time!!! hehe.

Right now, I'm so tired from all my activities today. But thank goodness there's no class tmr, so I have time to study and continue my report. However, work tmr is going to be tough. sigh.

And of course, I am so proud of Team Singapore for winning a silver medal in table-tennis for singapore!!! They really tried their best and for that I'm proud of them too (: Great job to Feng Tianwei, Li Jia Wei, Wang Yue Gu and coach Liu Guodong and everyone else who made it possible for them to clinch this medal and glory for our country! Thank you!

Singapore's first olympic medal in 48 years

2008-08-15T23:35:00.007+08:00

Finally the long 48-year wait is over.

I'm so proud of the singapore women's table tennis team!! Actually I didn't even know that there was a match today until i wanted to see what was happening at the olympics and found out that there was a table tennis match going on. I was even wondering if the singapore team was playing. When I switched to the channel it was Li Jia Wei's match and I was like "wow, not bad, what coincidence and luck that I got to watch." Usually like swimming is mostly shown when I'm working, so I was really glad I got to watch table tennis.

Anyway, I thought that her match then was the last one, so when it was the last game I was praying really hard that she would win. Although in the end she lost, it was still a close one. So I continued praying hard that the team would win and in the end we really won!!! I was watching so intently that I decided to take a cab to school if the match was going to end late. When it was the last game by Feng Tianwei, I just couldn't sit down, it was so intense especially at that final match point. As soon as the Korean side served the ball I saw it going over to the other side and we won!!

God really answered my prayer! We really won!! It was also our first medal since 1960 when Tan Howe Liang won silver for weightlifting and that was singapore's only medal since.

I was so emotional that I started to tear and was clapping and cheering like mad alone at home. lol. I think my neighbours either next door or downstairs might think that something had happened but I was just too happy. And then when I reached the lab it was so funny coz I was telling Shafina about it and she said that Nadia had already smsed her abt it too. Then Nadia came in and we started talking about it so excitedly. When the class started, KS came in and told us about the win and Nadia was telling him: 'This is like the 3rd time Shafina's hearing it. " lol. And I can't rmb who from the other table said that if we win a gold, we should have a public holiday. hehehe.

Anyway, it doesn't matter whether we win a gold or silver, I think they should play their best in the finals because they've already done us proud (:

You can read about the article here:

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/specialreport/news/368387_65/1/.html

long time

2008-08-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

Wow it seemed like a reeally long time since I blogged.

Have been super busy esp last weekend, I had to do OT to clear some paperwork in preparation for viewings during the weekend.

Time flies really fast when you're working and studying. And you soon realise that you have no life. Only occasional breathers when you can finally read a favourite book or do something you like.

Anyway, tomorrow might be a busy day again since it's friday. sigh...

~~~

That aside, it was funny how today I drank the green bean soup I bought for lunch and it tasted just like how my grandma cooked it. And suddenly I really missed the time when she would cook green bean soup nearly every week. And how we'd actually created a dessert together (but now I cannot really rmb what it was except that it involved a can of corn and some chestnuts).

After that as I was just looking through the videos section in my windows media player, I found a video which I've not seen before or I don't remember it even in my com since it's still relatively new. It was filmed (although only for a short while) during my cousin's 1-year-old birthday party which I can't remember why I wasn't there. But anyway, my grandma was holding my cousin and she held his hand to cut the cake. Although it only lasted less than a minute, it was like I saw her before me again and I started to cry. I really miss her. I miss someone I could really talk to at home rather than coming to an empty house everyday and talking to myself.

Why did she have to leave me so soon? I wanted her to be there when I graduate from uni, when I get married and when I have my first kid. But she'll not be here for all those. Only right here in my heart.

sigh

2008-08-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

Hmm the second day being 20 so far...first half of today was like totally bad and devastating.

But the rest of the day was fantastic.

However, I think i'm not gonna talk abt the bad part since it's alr over and forever over.

Anyway, let's talk about the good part.

I think it's kinda like for my birthday and also that there's a sale....

My mum and I went to G2000 and bought lots of clothes for my work. The original price for all should be $407, but in the end after the sale price, they were only for $193 which was really worth it for those kind of quality and quantity hehe. And I guess she wanted to cheer me up too. It was just a really great evening. And I think now I've got clothes to last me for many years to come since I'm most likely not going to gain any weight for a long time. lol.

Tmr will be a busy busy day and i wonder why i'm still awake. haha.

Thanks

2008-08-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

Thanks so much to everyone for their birthday wishes ((:

I'm so touched that you all remembered this special day.

I've enjoyed today despite work being not so good. But other than that, it's been a wonderful day with a wonderful weather. hehe.

Thanks once again :D

Miley cyrus - Breakout - review

2008-07-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

I finally got her album!!! Breakout!!

I'm going to do a song-by-song review:

1. Breakout: A catchy song with a good arrangement. Great song to start the album.

2. 7 things: My favourite song in the album. I suspect she wrote it for Nick Jonas. But whoever it was for, it's very catchy, rocky and nice!

3. The driveway: A very nice song. She sounded really mature. Makes you forget that she's only 15.

4. Girls just wanna have fun: An Okay song.

5. Full circle: Catchy song again.

6. Fly on the wall: Very cute song.

7. Bottom of the Ocean: Really made me feel as though I was swimming in the ocean and slowly reaching the bottom. I'm serious.

8. Wake up America: A very interesting song about going green and saving the Earth.

9. These four walls: I've not heard the original version by Cheyenne Kimball but she did it really well anyway.

10. Simple Song: As it said, it's a simple song.

11. Goodbye: Another favourite song in the album. When i first heard it I cried although it didn't really described about anything that happened in my life, it was a touching song still. A very good song for movies when the girl is regretting about a breakup or thinking about the guy.

12. See you again [Rock Mafia Remix]: I prefer the original version so this sounds just alright to me.

Overall: 4.5/5. Many catchy songs with great lyrics (most of which are written by Miley herself), You kinda forget that she's only 15. It's really a breakout for her (:

Thanks (:

2008-07-21T16:42:00.002+08:00

Thanks guys! For the rather early birthday celebration..heh. I love the glass chess set!!! It's so gonna be with me forever. I mean it. ;)

~~~

Today was my first day of work as a personal assistant to a property agent (i'm still working as a clinic asst ). It was quite cool and the working environment was great too. However, I have classes everyday for this whole week so this is gonna be a tough week for me. Luckily this job is only for half a day, so it leaves me time for studying too.

Alright, I've to get back to my report...

A funeral...

2008-07-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

3 days ago, I wondered why my mum wasn't home at 11 plus when I returned home. I wanted to sms her but as we were still not talking to each other then..I thought I won't. But still I just wondered where she would be. I thought she ran away some place coz Jac came to stay over. Somehow at the back of my mind I did wonder..could she have gone to a wake?

When she returned home I asked her where she went and she said that she went to a wake. So I asked her whose was it(And I did suspect someone) and she said it was the relative that had nose cancer growing out of his nose. He actually passed away 3 days ago early in the morning but my mum only told me that night.

Anyway, so I went to the wake with my mum last night and of course I did felt sad for his death but at least he was free from all the pain. He had nose and throat cancer from smoking; liver cancer from drinking and rectum cancer. The last time I heard, his cancer had spread to his brain and he had to go for radiotherapy. But the main thing that many mentioned was that his face turned really dark, most likely from all the treatment and cancer cells spreading. When I went to look at him lying in the coffin, he had no make-up on, and was dark and thin as many have said.

May he rest in peace. I will miss his art and fried maggi mee...

cold war

2008-07-15T00:07:00.003+08:00

This is going to be yet one of the longest cold war ever.

This time she's gone too far...she can't even see where's the line anymore. I've not seen anyone as unreasonable and self-centered as her.

I've really had it this time.

Vaccine talk and Vanished

2008-07-13T00:04:00.002+08:00

I attended a very interesting talk today about vaccines,a fter work. It was mainly about the rotavirus, cervical cancer and travel vaccines. Anyway, I was actually pretty tired after work but I still tried my best to pay attention. I've been having lectures for 4 nights consecutively and the last two nights ended pretty late. And I actually wanted to miss an episode of "House"last night, but then I thought maybe I'd just watch like 5 minutes of the show. But then it got really interesting. When they found a can of home-made tomatoes, I was like "Botulism!" but then the doctor ruled out food-bourne infection, so I ended up watching the whole show and it turned out the patient had organophosphate poisoning from his pants that were bought really cheaply. The person who sold it most likely spilled some pesticide or something on it and was lazy to clean it off and thus got absorbed into the skin.

Oh, and talking about pesticide, while I was closing the clinic today, I was greeted by a big cockroach on the metal sliding door, so when I kinda announced the presence of the cockroach I thought someone would help me to kill it (I am terrified of cockroaches)but the doctor asked me to kill it and handed me a can of pesticide. I was like..."wow...I'm terrified of cockroaches but I think I'd have to face it now". lol. So I sprayed at the cockroach but it scurried down onto the floor and ran into the doctor's room. Then I panicked even more and informed the doc that the cockroach ran into her room(and I was really afraid to enter it in case it suddenly jumped out at me or sth haha).But she was so calm and just said: "Well, if it wants to hide then let it be, if it wants to come out then just kill it.". haha. Anyway, I think my prolonged spray at the cockroach should probably have killed it by now. lol.

~~~

I actually plucked up the courage to watch a jap horror movie "Vanished (Oyayubi Sagashi)" just now on crunchyroll.alone. It's not really that horror, it's more of a thriller. But anyway, the reason why I watched it is of course because there's KENICHI MATSUYAMA!!!!. LOL.

***Spoilers ahead***

The movie's plot is actually really interesting. It's about this group of friends who decided to play a game that transports their souls to a room where they have to find a missing thumb(from a legend). Whoever finds it would have his wish granted. A boy, Takeshi ,is transported to a room where he scrambles about in search of the missing thumb. However, he hears Yumiko's screams from another room. As he tries to find her, someone taps him on the shoulder. And he was told not to look back or he'll never leave the room. Thereafter, Yumiko disappears. Years later, they play the same game in search of Yumiko, but one by one they get killed.

It turns out that Takeshi was the killer because he felt guilty that he didn't find Yumiko and it just haunted him. He promised her before the game that no matter what he will find her if she disappears. Yumiko actually staged her appearance. All of them thought that she disappeared into another world but actually she hid in the chute on the roof but it collapsed which was why she screamed and died. Takeshi only found out when they went back to the house again for the last time. Suddenly, he turned into a mad man and chopped off Tomohiko's thumb (played by Kenichi)!!. When I saw that scene I took like one big gasp as I saw the thumb on the floor filled with blood. And I was like..."Omgosh please don't die. please don't die." lol. Thank goodness he didn't die in the movie. And the ending was quite nice. Only Tomohiko and Chie survived.

When they were playing the game when they were young, Chie was the one who discovered that she was in the chute. But she promised not to tell. Which was probably why she uncovered the truth to this whole thing.

Ok, I'm really really exhausted, I'm sorry if some of my grammar don't sound right, I can hardly make out any logical sentence now.

Plan plan plan..

2008-07-07T23:52:00.004+08:00

I just realised that I'm really more of a planning kind of person. If I don't plan my day the night before, my day would just be horrible, messy and disorganised and I cannot get anything done.

But if I plan what I am going to do the next day, I would feel like I know what to do and it really makes me more organised and calm. At least I don't have to decide what to do because it's already been decided!

Why am I saying all this?

Because I didn't plan for the whole week. And I feel so disorganised and stressed now.

Guess the experiment failed. Or rather it really proved that I'm a planner.

So... I'm going to go plan what I'm gonna do tmr. lol.

Good night.

~~~

Oh.. before I forget.. there's a new poll that I've posted and I think it's really interesting...so pls go try it (: I'd really want to see the results. haha.

Funny incident...

2008-07-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Actually I wanted to blog about something really funny that happened when i was working last week but I kinda forgot until I rmbed it again today. So anyway, it started with this guy who walked in and kinda stopped in front of the counter but didn't say anything. So I asked him, "Are you here to see the doctor? Been here before?"

And then my colleague laughed and went: "He's her son(and points to my other colleague sitting at the counter)."

"Oh! Oh my gosh! this is soo embarrassing!"

Yeah and so we both burst out laughing. haha. It was hilarious even when i think about it. LOL.

And...within a really short period of time..somehow I managed to churn out another fan video of Kenichi Matsuyama, this is probably gonna be my last in a looong time at least till October haha. It's gonna be the last week I could at least still chill out for a bit. After this...it's gonna be busy busy busy all the way till Oct. I've already taken a glance at the medical physiology module slides and lecture notes. And they are thiiick to the bones...metaphorically. Anyway, this time the video has mainly pics of himself instead of L, but at the end, there are some pics of him as L in L:Change the World. Enjoy!

Kenichi Matsuyama 2nd fan video

2008-07-01T11:35:00.001+08:00

Hehe, I made another fan video of Kenichi Matsuyama, the song I used this time is Candy by Mandy Moore. You can catch it right here:

Work

2008-06-30T23:59:00.003+08:00

I guess now I shall update about how my job was as a clinic assistant for those 3 days.

The first two days were ok, coz there were not many patients, so i had time to try to learn other things at the clinic. But the third day was hectic, patients came in like all at once and they all wanted to do blood tests. I was also confused about many things. I thought that day my performance might cost me my job. But I thought, well, I'm still new, so I just hope they'll give me more time to learn, at least also to memorise where the medicines are. Some of them I haven't even seen before when I used to work at ttsh. So I need time..

Anyway, thank God they still want to hire me and I'm going to be a permanent part-timer. yay! But I heard that sunday will be really busy which is the day i'll be working. But luckily for now, I only have to work on saturday first until they feel i'm ready to work on sunday. heh.

L: change the world DVD!!!

2008-06-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

L: change the world DVD is finally here!!! I think I was the first customer at the VCD shop to get hold of the DVD. It includes an exclusive movie guide and movie Rubik's cube. It is so cool!!!

I just couldn't take my eyes off L whenever he came onscreen. I would be mainly staring at him and trying to catch the subtitles at the same time. Haha..man...I wish he would just jump out of the television. He is so cute!!

The plot was good and actually when I looked at the symptoms of the victims I was kinda guessing it would involved the Ebola virus and it did. Combined with the influenza virus too..scary combo.

Anyway, the special features of the DVD was nice too. Of course, again, I just couldn't take my eyes off Kenichi Matsuyama, he is just so hot and cute!! And one of his colleagues described him as "simple, kind and honest, considered rare." and I was like "Awww!!" . Ok, I should stop drooling all over my com now. lol.

It's a great film for all of L's fans out there! 6 out of 5 stars!! hehe. An extra one for Kenichi only :D

~~~

L aside, I walked and covered nearly half of Ang Mo Kio today with js, trying to locate the clinic that I would work at tmr. It's not really official yet, kinda like a 3 day try-out thing but I would be paid of course, then if both parties agree to continue working, i'd be a permanent staff there. As a clinic assistant. hehe.

I'm feeling pretty ok about the job, my mind is all filled with Kenichi now, so at least I won't get too nervous. haha.

Do forgive me, I think I'd probably be crazy about the film for sometime. Lol.

Haircut

2008-06-23T14:58:00.002+08:00

Oh man...after growing my hair long for about half a year, I decided to go for a haircut. I had one on saturday but it didn't turn out well. So much for a cheap haircut. It made me look like a kid.

So I went to cut my hair again today. My mum had kind of wanted me to have a bob hairstyle..but then I wasn't sure if it was suitable. I tried it anyway and coloured my hair too.

It turned out pretty well..but I can't wait for it to grow a little longer so that it'll look even nicer. haha. It actually looks kinda like Rachel's(Jennifer Aniston) hair in Friends Season 7 but a little more slanted at the side.

Breakout - 22nd July

2008-06-17T23:18:00.005+08:00

I can't wait for Miley Cyrus' upcoming album - Breakout - out on July 22! I've previewed a few songs and they're really good. I love the song "7 things" especially.

The cover looks great too:

If you would like to listen to "7 things" you can click this link here:
7 things

And the official music video for "7 things" will be released on June 28. Can't wait for that too!!

mistake in running time

2008-06-17T14:45:00.002+08:00

I apologise for the mistake that I typed about the running time for kungfu panda, it's actually 88 minutes but I wrote 145 minutes. I actually mistook it for the running time for Narnia. So sorry.

Movies

2008-06-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

I watched two movies in the cinema this week. Quite a record, coz I've never been to the cinema twice in a week before but they're two different cinemas though haha. Actually I seldom watch movies in a cinema. I mainly rent or get the vcds once the movies are released. haha. But this time there're just so many great movies in the box office right now. Like Narnia, Kung Fu panda, The Incredible Hulk, The Happening, Sex and the City etc..

Anyway, I went to watch Narnia with js on Friday. It was fantastic! Prince Caspian was so hot. lol. From the start till the end, it's just so exciting. Many mind-blowing moments! I give it a 4.5/5

And today, I went to watch Kung Fu Panda with my 6 year old cousin (thankfully sponsored by my mother or I would be so broke by now), who actually fell asleep for 15 min at some point in time. lol. Anyway she told me at the end of the movie that it was nice but she didn't understand what they were all saying. lol. Maybe she was too excited or rather..restless. She actually took out her multiple crayon pen to play at the start and I had to confiscate it for a while because it was noisy with the clicks of the pen. Overall, the movie was great and hilarious, the whole cinema would laugh together during those moments and the plot is interesting. The voices for the characters were also star-studded. With Jack Black as the Panda, you can be assured of a full 145 minutes of humor and laughter. lol. This one a 4.5/5 too. haha

I think the next one I might want to watch would be The Happening, it looks really thrilling and I don't mind a chilling thriller once in a while. Just not horror. haha. Plus this one is by M. Night Shyamalan who did Signs, The Sixth Sense and The village, which are all pretty interesting I must say. haha. Or I might wait for this to come out on VCD. lol.

Timetable

2008-06-06T23:15:00.003+08:00

I just printed out the timetable for next term and when i first saw it my eyes nearly popped out. Coz it was so packed from 8th July till 26 Sep. It's full except for 3 slots, and one which coincidentally was on my birthday haha. Luckily we don't have to go back for all the slots, depending on whether u are in group A or B for lab.

But man..I noticed that from the week before my birthday, the lessons were continous:
21 Jul Mon - Lab
Tue - Lecture
Wed - Lecture
Thur - Lab
Fri - Lecture
28 Jul Mon - Lecture
Tue - Lecture
Wed - Lecture
Thur - Lecture
Fri - Break

This was so far the most packed one..but the rest is similar..abt 4 times a week. So far the two terms that we have gone through have been pretty ok, like 3 -4 lessons a week. And they're usually not so consecutive as this term. On the average there are 4 lab sessions and 8 lectures per module. But I think because this term we're taking Medical Physiology and it's a heavy module, so there are like 8 lab sessions and 18 lectures plus 6 workshops, which is why the timetable is so packed.

It's gonna be a rough ride. But we're lucky the "driver" for our Medical Physiology module is Dr. Pallavi (: Yay! She's a great lecturer so I'm glad she's back to teach us again after she gave birth at the end of term 1. heh. There are also workshops for Med. physio, I wonder what we'll be doing but I hope it's clinical stuff like we did for microbio, which are so interesting. lol.

Sick relative

2008-06-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

I wonder if you remembered one blog entry about this relative who harrassed me at my door one time during October last year. The link is right here: http://tht88.blogspot.com/2007/10/scared.html

Here's a short excerpt from it:
"Actually, I think I didn't cry because of what he said. But the fact that he knew where we live. I felt my life threatened. No one knows how aggressive a man can get when he's drunk and he wants something. I've seen that aggressive being in him. That's why I was scared. I do see him sometimes at the central area near my house but that's like quite a crowded place, so i usually dun bother abt him, anyway he's always drunk. But this time, to think he even came up and to think I STUPIDLY open the door. WHY? WHY DID I PUT MYSELF INTO DANGER?"

Anyway, we kinda actually concluded that another relative or rather one of his siblings could have told him where we lived.

Ok, so you kinda get an idea of what kind of man he is.

Actually, my mum, uncle and I went to visit him at the hospital on Sunday.

It started with his brother beating him up because of sth. But he didn't want to seek treatment until when he felt those injuries were really painful, then he seeked help from someone who sent him to the hospital.

Initially, we heard that the doctor found out he had tuberculosis, nose and throat cancer, cancer of the rectum and most likely liver cancer/cirrhosis.

But I think it turned out that he didn't have TB. Or it was mild and probably cured because it was only on one side. But then he insisted on going home. So he was discharged but feeling really sick because of his cancers. Yet we heard he was still "running" around the neighbourhood

So then, on Sunday, we (actually my mum found out earlier than sunday) found out that he was admitted again. So we went to find out his ward, which actually wasn't even correct because a relative told us the wrong ward and floor, so we had to search for a while and ended up at a totally different ward and different floor. And he's not even in his bed. The nurse told us that he refused to talk to any of the nurses and would just wander off on his own.

We figured he might have sneaked out for a smoke or sth, so we went to search for him near the lobby. Funnily though, he had an eye operation in the past so we know his eyes were weak, but he actually saw us from a far distance and waved at us. (He said he could roughly make out my uncle who's big sized)

When I saw him I was horrified. Although I already expected it to be kinda shocking but not to that extent. We heard from that relative who told us his ward that his cancer on his nose grew out and could be seen. I thought it was just a small bump. Little did I know or expect, it was huge. It grew out the whole front of the nose and some on the right side and it even spread to his right eye lid, so the cancer grew out and you can see this huge bump that caused his right eye to close. His voice changed too because of the throat cancer. He became so skinny. And he was saying something about an operation and he pointed to his abdomen, so it was either stomach or liver or both (because he would always drink on an empty stomach and he never eats proper meal, it might be stomach too).

So then he told us that once was enough to scare him, he didn't really expect that it would be so bad. I guess he regretted now all the smoking and drinking, but i'm afraid it's all too late. His nose really didn't look very good.

Although he was really bad to me in the past, somehow when I saw him in that state, I felt really sad for him and just thought, "man, I'm gonna miss his fried maggi mee". His fried maggi mee was always nice and spicy and the rare occasions he eats. But I don't really eat a lot, usually only just a mouthful because I'm worried about his hygiene when he cooks. lol.

But then, as a habitual heavy smoker, it's always hard to quit even with his cancer. Before we left he told us, "I think I might go steal a smoke later."

Fishy Week

2008-06-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

Just today alone was so fishy to me.

When I say fishy, I don't really mean suspicious. lol. I meant the fish meant for eating.

Yesterday, I had sardines and rice for lunch, but that was still ok.

But this morning, I had fish luncheon with English muffins (the bread that is used for Sausage MacMuffin in Mac's). And, I had two of that too, with cheese. Anyway, a can was about 4 slices of that. So since 2 was eaten during breakfast, there was still 2 more.

And so that 2 more was kept till lunch...which was eaten together with rice and sardines and English muffins again. Man, I felt so fishy after that.

At least luckily for dinner I didn't have anything fishy coz I had cup noodles.

Tomorrow though lol, I'm having sardines again, this time probably with baked beans. And for dinner I'm cooking Tuna Pasta.

I don't mind the sardines actually, coz I'm kinda having a fish obsession this week. Sometimes I have pasta obsession, sometimes it's salmon(I could have them for a month). Yeah. And I might even try to create a Sardine Pasta. haha.

Something really funny though was that I woke up at 6.30 am in the morning just to prepare breakfast coz I didn't think I could finish the can, so I tot I could prepare for my mum to bring to work. So then I managed to pull myself up at 6.40 and I was going to open the can only to realise....that the 2 can openers were both rusty. Man, that's the thing when u dun use something often. Most cans nowadays have the easy pull out ring. So anyway, I had to wait for like an hour before I went down to the supermarket to get a new can opener. I should have checked the can opener in the first place.

Now..I'm just really tired..haha.

Hurt

2008-05-30T21:44:00.001+08:00

She totally spoke out of line and hurt me badly this time. It was the worst thing she could ever say about me that is not true.

I don't know how I can ever talk to her anymore. I never thought she would say such things about me.

Microbiology tmr

2008-05-27T23:17:00.003+08:00

Wow..time flies really fast and today was just gone like that.

I had a really intense revision today to revise everything again except for a little bit on the practical. My brain couldn't absorb anymore after everything plus calculations. And just as I finished my revision, the kids from right above the study room suddenly got noisy. They were playing some kind of marble game or something and jumping about, screaming and a few loud door slammings, that I had to shut the windows, I would have really wanted to do something about it but then I thought since I'm already done with revision, I should just leave it. Plus I don't really wanna make a big fuss out of it.

But it was already like nearly 10..shouldn't they be asleep? Kids these days stay up really late huh.. lol.

After tmr, there's one exam to go, so it's not over yet. But at least clearing the double module tmr would be a sort of relief.

exams

2008-05-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hmm final term exam in 2 days..

Starting to freak out but trying not to. I always freak out before exams, although I know what freaking out will do. But I'm also trying my best to keep calm, so that I can remember more stuff.

Anyway, tonight was the season finale of "The Arena". Actually I only started watching here and there since the quarter-finals as I tot that the show was pretty interesting. And I think tonight's topic was the most interesting and a pretty good topic to debate on. It was "Freedom of speech has gone too far on the web". The first round was a bit shaky for me from both teams, but as the rounds progressed, I felt that Raffles Instituition really gave a better argument for their side as the opposition and I think they deserved to win. On the other hand, Nanyang gave a good fight as well, and coming in as the runner-up is something worth celebrating too, having come this far. I thought they were really strong in the semi-finals against Singapore American School, and so they deserved to be there in the finale.

A great season finale tonight indeed.

Old diary entries

2008-05-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

Just a while ago, I had a sudden feeling, to read back my old diary entries. Somehow, I kinda wanted to read how I was like in the past, and like what happened in all these years.

It's really interesting to see how much I've changed, and also how many things have changed over so long. It really made me want to continue writing again, after stopping for about half a year. So maybe...in a few years time I could read back and see the changes in my life again. And learn from past mistakes.

It made me realise many things too.

The new American Idol!

2008-05-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

Around 10:15 am this morning, I was already standing in front of the tv, my heart beating so quickly I just couldn't sit still. So I closed my eyes as Ryan Seacrest was about to announce the new American Idol, and I was also chanting in my heart "Archuleta! Archuleta!".

Then, I heard "David....Cook!".

I was kind of disappointed, but then I know that both of them are good, and it actually didn't really mattered who won, just that I liked Archuleta more than Cook. Lol. So I think they both had equal chances, and indeed Cook is more popular and he actually can sing a wider range of songs than Archuleta. Because come to think of it, I haven't really heard Archuleta sing any rock songs yet. But Cook, has sang like ballads, rock, and his most memorable song was actually "Always be my baby" during the Mariah Carey week. That was the most creative version i've ever heard. haha.

So actually no matter who won, I'm still gonna buy both of their albums. (:

~~~
And last night, I forgot to blog about the last episode of "Pandemic" because I was so into blogging about American Idol. lol.

Anyway, it was a good ending, they managed to discover a treatment, and the answer was actually found in the druglord, who escaped but was captured again. It's a long story, and I couldn't really hear some parts of what she said because she was speaking a little too fast. But I think it was sth about using the blood from people who had active tuberculosis before and were treated. Something found in their blood didn't allow the virus to attach to the cells. Which was great. And the show ended with the FBI officer asking the doctor whether she wanted to grab a coffee sometime. So it's a happy ending! heh.

American Idol finale...

2008-05-22T00:22:00.005+08:00

Finally, the most intense finale we've all been waiting for. And it's probably the best finale yet on American idol.

These two Davids are just so talented, that it was really neck-and-neck throughout the whole competition. I started out liking David Cook, for his voice and rocker style. But then as I listened to David Archuleta, he was more soulful and he just has this really ..really...pure and wonderful vocals. And its' been Archuleta ever since. Plus he's kinda cute too. lol.

I will always rmb his touching performances like "When you believe", "Stand by me" and especially "Love me tender" that made me cry. He's just so talented and natural.

In tonight's finale, David Archuleta just won all the rounds. He was so great, even with the second song from the songwriting competition, the song was nice, but he made it even better. It was more memorable than the song that Cook chose which I felt was forgettable.

I really hope David Archuleta will win!!

God is amazing

2008-05-18T22:49:00.005+08:00

I went to Celine's church this morning for a service. And the sermon that the pastor gave today was truly inspiring, and it really made me appreciate and love God more. The scripture he discussed was from Joshua 10:1-41.

One very important point that he elaborated more was that God performs miracles. And then he shared some real life experiences from others. He shared one experience from a doctor that he said to him, whenever he recalls this, he would cry. After he read the whole testimony to us, even I started tearing. It was just so amazing! I tried my luck in looking for the story online and I managed to find it. It is from this doctor, Helen Roseveare, who was working in Central Africa at that time. Here's her real life experience:

"The Hot Bottle Water - A True Story By Helen Roseveare

One night, in Central Africa, I had worked hard to help a mother in the labor ward; but in spite of all that we could do, she died leaving us with a tiny, premature baby and a crying, two-year-old daughter. We would have difficulty keeping the baby alive. We had no incubator. We had no electricity to run an incubator, and no special feeding facilities. Although we lived on the equator, nights were often chilly with treacherous drafts.

A student-midwife went for the box we had for such babies and for the cotton wool that the baby would be wrapped in. Another went to stoke up the fire and fill a hot water bottle. She came back shortly, in distress, to tell me that in filling the bottle, it had burst. Rubber perishes easily in tropical climates. "...and it is our last hot water bottle!" she exclaimed. As in the West, it is no good crying over spilled milk; so, in Central Africa it might be considered no good crying over a burst water bottle. They do not grow on trees, and there are no drugstores down forest pathways. "All right," I said, "Put the baby as near the fire as you safely can; sleep between the baby and the door to keep it free from drafts. Your job is to keep the baby warm."

The following noon, as I did most days, I went to have prayers with many of the orphanage children who chose to gather with me. I gave the youngsters various suggestions of things to pray about and told them about the tiny baby. I explained our problem about keeping the baby warm enough, mentioning the hot water bottle. The baby could so easily die if it got chilled. I also told them about the two-year-old sister, crying because her mother had died.

During the prayer time, one ten-year-old girl, Ruth, prayed with the usual blunt consciousness of our African children. "Please, God," she prayed, "send us a water bottle. It'll be no good tomorrow, God, the baby'll be dead; so, please send it this afternoon." While I gasped inwardly at the audacity of the prayer, she added by way of corollary, " ...And while You are about it, would You please send a dolly for the little girl so she'll know You really love her?" As often with children's prayers, I was put on the spot. Could I honestly say, "Amen?" I just did not believe that God could do this. Oh, yes, I know that He can do everything: The Bible says so, but there are limits, aren't there? The only way God could answer this particular prayer would be by sending a parcel from the homeland. I had been in Africa for almost four years at that time, and I had never, ever received a parcel from home. Anyway, if anyone did send a parcel, who would put in a hot water bottle? I lived on the equator!

Halfway through the afternoon, while I was teaching in the nurses' training school, a message was sent that there was a car at my front door. By the time that I reached home, the car had gone, but there, on the veranda, was a large twenty-two pound parcel! I felt tears pricking my eyes. I could not open the parcel alone; so, I sent for the orphanage children. Together we pulled off the string, carefully undoing each knot. We folded the paper, taking care not to tear it unduly. Excitement was mounting. Some thirty or forty pairs of eyes were focused on the large cardboard box.

From the top, I lifted out brightly colored, knitted jerseys. Eyes sparkled as I gave them out. Then, there were the knitted bandages for the leprosy patients, and the children began to look a little bored. Next, came a box of mixed raisins and sultanas - - that would make a nice batch of buns for the weekend. As I put my hand in again, I felt the...could it really be? I grasped it, and pulled it out. Yes, "A brand-new rubber, hot water bottle!" I cried. I had not asked God to send it; I had not truly believed that He could. Ruth was in the front row of the children. She rushed forward, crying out, "If God has sent the bottle, He must have sent the dolly, too!" Rummaging down to the bottom of the box, she pulled out the small, beautifully dressed dolly. Her eyes shone: She had never doubted! Looking up at me, she asked, "Can I go over with you, Mummy, and give this dolly to that little girl, so she'll know that Jesus really loves her?"

That parcel had been on the way for five whole months, packed up by my former Sunday School class, whose leader had heard and obeyed God's prompting to send a hot water bottle, even to the equator. One of the girls had put in a dolly for an African child -- five months earlier in answer to the believing prayer of a ten-year-old to bring it "That afternoon!"

Helen Roseveare a doctor missionary from England to Zaire, Africa, told this as it had happened to her in Africa. She shared it in her testimony on a Wednesday night at Thomas Road Baptist Church.

"And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear." (Isaiah 65:24)

This story originates from Helen Roseveare, a missionary from Northern Ireland. She included this story in her book "Living Faith." She has written about the revival that took place in the 1950's in what was then the Belgian Congo. She has been associated with WEC (World Evangelization for Christ at http://www.wec-int.org/index.html). Some of her writings can be ordered from (http://www.wec-int.org/ministries.htm#books) "

[Acknowledgement: Thanks to "http://living-testimony.blogspot.com/2006/10/hot-bottle-water-true-story-by-helen.html" for this post. ]

Indeed, this story just truly amazed me so about how powerful and wonderful God is. And I am so grateful that I have come to know this loving God. And as we go about our everyday lives, we should continue to pray that there will be more miracles for the victims of the twin tragedies in Asia. I cried just now when I watched the news about the quake in Sichuan. I was so touched and thankful that there were still survivors out there, with the strong will to live and every second matters in the rescue work. But i was also sad at the same time, that so many people died in this devastating disaster. As for the Myanmar tragedy, I hope that the country will provide more access for relief work, so that more people could receive help.

Hmmmm

2008-05-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

I was shocked. I came home a few hours ago to an empty house. I thought maybe my mum had been caught up at work or sth. But no, it seemed weird because she left a note and money on the countertop. I felt sth was wrong.

I went into her room, her suitcase weren't there, and the toilet was still wet. Then on my bed I saw a big shopping bag, I wondered what it was and a note stuck on it wrote: "For U:C if U like it"

I started to cry. Because in the bag, was the perfect handbag. One I've never seen before but was just what I was looking for. I've been looking for a handbag for a really long time, and sometimes my mum would go shopping with me to look for it, but because she's paying, she has to approve of it. And so far, everytime i see a nice one that looks okay, its either "too big" or "too small" or "too auntie" or "colour not nice". So I was like, "man, even i'm not that picky when it comes to a handbag, maybe u shld pick one for me." Anyway, I tot the handbag issue was like left aside for a while. And now, suddenly she bought a $100+ Guess handbag for me, just the right size, perfect design. And I tot she would never buy such an expensive bag for me. In fact, its my first branded bag. lol.

So I cried because I was touched and shocked coz I tot she was leaving tmr, and suddenly *bam*, she left. Then, I sent her an sms to ask her if she was indeed leaving Singapore. And she replied that she's on the way to the airport. So, that's the confirmation.

Anyway, I guess one more night alone at home.

Sometimes...

2008-05-15T00:08:00.006+08:00

Sometimes...I wish my life would be like a romantic comedy. One that contains happiness, laughter, sadness, and a happily ever after.

Sometimes...somehow, it seemed to be happening. And then it all changes and *poofs* back to a boring, lonely life.

Sometimes...I wish my life would be different, if I had a chance to start all over, I would do things differently. I would avoid certain bad situations.

Sometimes...I wish I was never born. But I know God had a purpose for me.

Sometimes...even though I know that God had a purpose for me, I still don't feel like I should be born.

Sometimes..I wish I had a shoulder to cry on..instead of leaning on to my couch for a "shoulder".

Sometimes...I still wish I was never born even after I try to talk myself out of this cycle.

Sometimes...I wish that the world would understand me better.

Sometimes...I wish there would be someone who would tell me that everything will be alright. Even if everything wouldn't be alright.

Sometimes..I wish..

I wish..

I wish..I knew what I should wish for.